my head is in a dark place

[angel of despair]

So my nanna got taken into hospital this week, today iv just had a call saying she has 24-48 hours.

This past week i'v felt like i'm a burden to family, I know everyone is grieving but I feel like no one wants me around. Litually spent the whole afternoon, evening and now night alone in my flat in tears.

I'm trying to write an assignement thats due but can't concentrate.

I feel like noone wants me here.

[Accidentally Abstract]

Oh B, I'm sorry you're feeling so low & it's awful about your Nanna. Are you able to see her in hospital at all?

Why do you think you're a burden? From what I know, you're pretty close to your sister & I'm sure she wouldn't think that. Has anything specific happened to bring you to this conclusion or is it just your head being nasty?

It's no surprise that you've been unable to concentrate on the assignment when you're so upset & in tears - perhaps you could try another distraction instead? Be kind to yourself & do something which you enjoy or which relaxes you until you feel a little bit better if you can.

Also, we want you here, you're a lovely person.

Look after yourself & I hope you manage to get a decent sleep tonight.

Take care hon.

[The Worst Witch]

I love you and want you here. Xxx

[angel of despair]

Its been 3 days since she passed.

I'm struggling

Its 11 at night, my thoughts feel weird, my paranoia is through the roof and I have no one to call.

The urges I have are awful considering the circumstances i'm trying to resist.

I feel so drained. I nearly called the crisis team but then i remembered i was discharged from the cmht so that was no longer an option

[Greene0Kelly]

I'm sorry for your lost :(

[[Luna]]

I'm very sorry for your loss lovely, please be gentle with yourself and give yourself time to grieve.
Could you take yourself to a&e if you're feeling really unsafe?

Thinking of you.