Worried I'm doing too well

[Nayy]

It's been along time since I have posted here, as I have been in along term bpd unit (cornerstones). After a bad start here I'm now doing really well. I haven't self harmed since August. I have my unescorted leave back after 10months of escorted. But my worry is am I just doing too well? I keep having dreams and urges to go backwards and take another big overdose.
Any ideas to keep the possitive vibes going gratefully recieved.

[Amaryllis]

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Originally Posted by Auror.

I'm glad you are doing well there. I remember you were really struggling before.

I can understand why backtracking feels essentially safer, as it is what you are used to. Have you spoken to staff or anyone on your treatment team about this? I imagine it is something fairly common.

What about making a pros/cons list of what overdosing would do? Also, do you have any goals? Things you want to do long term, aside from be discharged? It might help to think of some positive things you want to accomplish, and use those as motivation to not do anything destructive?

I had some advice to say, but Auror here has said it much better.