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[sickofbeinglonely]

Hello guys and girls,

Could you help me out here! I live in a another country. and I am so depressed right now and I can't handle anyone. I feel so lonely but the same time I do not like to talk to anyone but I do want to! I am crazy I guess!! I have been abused all my life psychically and Emotionally all my life from my parents, at school, and from everyone. I can't concentrate on my studies and I feel distracted all the time and imagining things. I have no friends and everyone seems to hate me because I DO NOT TALK MUCH. hmmm well I am in a country that I do not speak the language and I am learning it but the problem is I can't memorize words and I feel so tired always. I think about things like " I wish I never born and things ending, and I want to end my life" - Well DO NOT WORRY I WANT DO IT BECAUSE I AM AFRAID.
hmm I do not know how to describe my self more than this, OK! I am shy, lonely, I want to be loved and have intimate relationship. oh yeah I am in my mid-twenties.

Can someone help me?!

With so much love to all of you people. XX

[sickofbeinglonely]

Oh, I forgot to say that something bad happened to me and everyone started to talk about me in my country and now I am so afraid from just hearing people talking near me.

[sickofbeinglonely]

??????????????????

someone!

[Forest Fire]

Hi :)
I'm far from a regular on this site but from my experience it can take a while for people to reply, it's not that people aren't interested or that no one cares. It's took me a while to think what to write to you...
I can relate to a few of the things you said but unfortunately i haven't figured the answers out myself yet so i can't guide you on that.
What are you in a foreign country for? is it for your studies or are you over there with your parents? Is going to a country where you can speak the language not an option?
I'm glad that you don't want to end your life even though you have those thoughts, are there any parts of your life that you do enjoy? even little things