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Hello :) i'm sorry i didn't expect it to be that long...
Hey ! So I've just signed up, (today) and i thought i should probably say something, even though i'm not sure what to say.
First of all i'm not even sure what's going on in my life, everything just seems to go wrong and I feel like nobody understands me. I have loads of trouble talking to my parents and my brother and sister (i'm thirteen :() and i also have trouble socializing at school and even with my friends (i only have one or two real friends, the others i tend to get fed up with because our group is falling apart). I'm not sure when things started going wrong, it may have been a year ago because that's when i first remeber cutting, well kind of cutting because it wasn't much and i didn't even know it was actually emotional pain-releasing cutting and i didn't understand why people who really cut did, but it may also have been three years ago when my parents started having really big rows with my brother, who is now seventeen ( my sister is fifteen) and it really affected me but my parents didn't notice and of course with time it only got worse... I think the reason i really signed up is because i feel thet i'm going to snap, especially when my mom came in my room yesterday and started saying how she was so sad because our family wasn't a happy family anymore and she made it feel like it was my fault because of how i acted with them (i admit i'm quite aggressive) when i find that it's because of how they've been acting for years that i'm so depressed and aggressive.
Anyway i started seeing a therapist a week ago and i'm going to see her again next week but i just wanted to feel part of something and be able to share my feelings with others who have maybe been in the same type of situation as me and who understand :)
Oh yeah and i think i started cutting a month ago and i've already tried stopping because i decided that i didn't want cutting to stay with me forever(i hope it doesn't :() so i haven't been cutting for a couple of days :)
I don't know if i should have said all that just on the introduction thread but i think i really needed to talk about it :(
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