The only thing I've ever been diagnosed with is ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder). However, it's impossible that that is the only thing I have. I hate interacting with people. I'm paranoid about everything. I overanalyze everything. I literally observe other people, trying to figure out why they act the way they act, because I'm so different. I wish I was joking, but I'm not. Also, I'm a pathological liar. I lie even when it isn't necessary. I'm lazy, I directly disobey myself. I seem to have another side of my thoughts always pushing me to do the wrong thing, and the scary thing is, sometimes I just do the wrong thing without thinking about it. Am I missing a part of my brain, like the thought process or something? Does it just not register? I have no idea. My parents say I'm "special," and so do the doctors. I hate saying it, because it's how I became arrogant, but I'm apparently "smart." Moving on! But they use that as an excuse for why they call me "special." I don't buy any of that crap. There's something wrong with me they're not telling me, and that's not what I think just because of my paranoia, I've eavesdropped on little snippets of them talking to my doctors before. Apparently it's something that gets worse the older I get, and if they don't stop me before I finish going through "the change," (their voices got quieter at this point.) I still don't understand why they won't tell me, but I'd appreciate it if someone could help me. Oh, also, my emotions are extremely sensitive. And believe me, it's not "the change."
Who I appear to be and who I actually am are two entirely different things.
Have you been open about all of the symptoms you feel you are experiencing? If you have, it may be that you do not fit the criteria for a specific disorder, or they need to observe you for longer, or, it could also be that they do not wish to label you with anything else due to your age. There are a fair number of diagnoses that generally should not be given prior to age 18 due to the changing nature of the adolescent brain, even if you fit criteria at this point.
If you have questions about things, you'd need to ask your parents or your doctors about what is going on, since they know you and are involved in your care.
I've been open with my symptoms, however, for the worse symptoms, many times they seem to either ignore them or not believe them. I'm not sure why. The few times I've been completely open with all of my symptoms, actions, and the thoughts that go through my head, they've immediately sent me to the nearest Behavioral Hospital, which, when I reach, rejects me, saying that being put there is not necessary.
Who I appear to be and who I actually am are two entirely different things.
Auror, don't worry. It was not offensive at all. And, one other thing. Auror, your a good person. I hope you've read my introduction, and I'd like to say I'm sorry, and I do hope you will forgive me.
Who I appear to be and who I actually am are two entirely different things.
