Possibly Triggering - I buried my self harm *UPDATE*

[Sooty]

Yesterday was the 7th anniversary of one of my best friend's death and I went to spend some time with my thoughts of her in a wooded area yesterday. I was at first sad but then I thought about how even though she was so young... she still managed to stay happy right up until the end of her life. It made me think of what she would say looking at the state I am in at the moment if she were here. This made me realise that if she could be happy for virually all her life... then what's stopping me being happy for the rest of my life?

I have been trying to recover for like 11 months however slipping up so many times I've lost count. I guess I never stopped for the right reasons... but yesterday it was like something clicked. Sitting in the woods with beautiful trees all around me and thoughts of my friend in mind... I realised that I CAN RECOVER. This is now the very start... I have the right reasons now.

I lit a candle in the woods and litterally got any bloody bandages and my very last blade that I had on me and litterally buried them in the earth. Once done I blew out the candle and felt the most enormous relief... That marked the start... the journey to happiness. I have buried my self harm in those woods, left it there and intend to never return and dig it back up!

Sophie.x

[Doesnt_matter]

Hi Sophie,
it is such a strong and brave ritual that you did and I am sure that your best friend would be very proud of you.
I wish you all the best (good luck and lots of strength) for your new life without SIing.
Take care and feel free to contact me any time,
Judith

[butterfly525]

Aww it's always nice to read a post like this. Like doesn't matter said, I'm sure your friend would be proud of you for making this decision. I hope you are strong enough to kick the habit for good this time. Good luck!

[IceBreak]

Sophie, wot more is there to say cept I love youuuuuuu <33333333333333
and well done!!!!!!!!!

*hugs*

Ps does this mean I can look forward to a very bright, cheery, bubbly mad sophie in 2 weeks) hehe Im always here and u know im always contactable,

Love u always(as a friend of course)
Ann

[klo_flo]

Sophie - that was wonderful to read.... and I really hope it is as powerful for you in helping you recover as it reads.

Make sure you know that we are here to help along the way.

Take care of yourself and well done.
*hugs*

Chloe x

[Lampost]

That was actually really nice to read. Even though I don't know you I am so incredibly pleased for you, it takes alot of curage to do a "ritual" such as that.
I hope it all goes well for you. Look forward to a post in the future that says you've got through it all.
xx

[ConcreteAngel]

thats lovely.
i hope one day i can be like you
x

[AndBreathe]

That was a really nice thing to read. Well done Sophie =]

[xxhappydaysxx]

really nice to read that... well done!! thats an amazing step.
take care..always here if you want to chat to anyone xxx

[Sooty]

Hi, thank you all for your encouraging words...

I thought I would post here today to mark the 1 month since I burried my self harm. It's been an amazing month... I haven't had any urges at all. Of course I think about it... can't really help it on RYL but I've never wanted to do it or feel like I miss it. I'm looking forward to another succesful month. Take care everyone...

Sophie.x

[Moonlight Princess]

Well done on your first month free Sophie! I'm sure your friend would be incredibly proud of you, as are we!

[crazykat]

Congrats on your one month free sophie, that is fantastic.

[klo_flo]

Sophie that is brilliant!! Huge congratualations and remember we are here if you need us. Sounds as though you are doign fantastically though.

Take care,
Chloe x

[revenge]

thats so great! =]
i love reading inspirational stories like these,
you should be really proud of yourself =]

xx

[butterfly525]

That's great, I'm really happy for you! Stay strong!

[Ginger Snap]

Wow that's so great! Well done :)
Good luck with it all.
I'm sure you'll be just fine

xxx

[Devia_Angelus87]

*cuddles*

[systawytch]

Well done sophie, really pleased for you, keep strong, hold on to ur inner strength and continue to use it to allow you to grow stronger daily. What u done made me smile when I read it. I might not be around too often but I do think of certain folks around the boards who I was lucky to know, if u ever need or want to pm please feel free to. I'm really happy for you hun. Take care

Love & Light
Lisa xx

[IceBreak]

If only I was half as strong as u sophie

[crushed_butterfly]

Hi Sophie,
I just want to say well done, it is so hard to make that first step. And you have done it. You have also encouraged me to keep going as well, I will always think of this thread when I feel down. Thank you for giving me strength.

*HUGS*

Cazy