Does this make sense

[Anony_mousey]

So sometimes when I'm really stressed over something I get what feels like a panic attack, but it's more than that. At first it's the hyperventilating and feeling really panicky,most then I start feeling suicidal. And I tend to say these things outside, like last night I had this happen again and I was curled up crying muttering that I shouldn't live, but at the same time although it makes me think I want to do it it doesn't make me physically want to do it. I don't understand what's going on and it's scary. Does anyone understand what I mean with all this?

[daverecovers]

Hello,

I do understand your point. I would like to mention that a panic attack is usual when under a lot of stress. Stress triggers a panic attack inside us and we loose our control and our emotions come out.

I am not an expert but I think you should talk about this with someone and see if talking/counseling helps you to ease a little bit.

I wish you a healthy life!

Regards,

[Wonderland.]

I've been through Panic Attacks myself and wanted to things to harm because of the lack of control (that could potentially kill me, but not with intent to die). Just to stop it, and get back in control and not be so utterly scared.

Is this kind of what you mean?

[Anony_mousey]

It's hard to say, what you described is kinda like what I mean, but it doesn't seem the same. I can't really find a way to put it into words. It just feels like the stress gets too much and while I show all the symptoms of a panic attack I just feel an overwhelming suicidal urge, yet that I don't want to act on it. It's really hard to explain it.

[Too Shy]

That sounds incredibly distressing for you, and even though you don't want to act on those suicidal urges it's a very mentally draining thing to fight through.

Are you getting any support to help you cope at the moment?