I'm feeling like a horrible person

[KindaAnnoyed]

Okay so my dad just dropped a bombshell on me and told me that he might be going to prison for an unknown period of time for something that he was dragged into by his co-workers in the past. The issue isn't so much that I can't get over this fact but rather, I don't really feel anything about it. I've always been rather apathetic towards people even family member (well, its not so much that I don't care but I get over things really REALLY quickly so I don't APPEAR to care). I have never cried or even felt sad in any of my relative's funeral even if I was really close to them. Right now, I'm seeing my mom really worried but I still don't feel anything and I feel guilty because I seem like a total dick for not feeling anything. How do I get myself to genuinely feel for something when I can't? I'm not expecting a deus ex machina answer but some advise would really help because I don't want to put more pressure on my mom by appearing like a douche who doesn't care about his family.

[ajrocks]

I know how you feel I can be very much like that but its because I dissociate from my feelings a lot which I am working on in counselling so I'm getting a bit better at it now.
Have you thought about trying counselling?

[Too Shy]

It does sound like you're feeling very detached from your emotions at the moment.

I don't think you should feel that you have to force yourself to 'genuinely' feel anything that you don't feel, but do be aware that if the reason you're not 'feeling' anything is because you tend to (subconsciously) dissociate from emotions, there is a risk of it hitting you very hard when you're not expecting it.

It may well be that part of your brain almost 'switches off' in order to try and cope with some things. Do you have a difficult relationship with your dad?

From what you've said, do try not to worry about putting pressure on your mum, it doesn't sounds like you're reacting in a 'bad' way at all. If you are concerned, could you try to sit down and talk to her about it, see if there's anything you could say/do to help her if she's feeling upset, and go from there?