I have very very low self-esteem. It affects me in everything I do and it can be crippling. When I tell people I hate myself, they will ask why and say, 'but you're x! You're so y!'. It means nothing. NOTHING. It doesn't change the fact that inside I am black and rotten and dirty.
Does anyone else feel like this? What, if anything, helps? I really want this to improve but I have hated myself and felt like a freak since I was about 4, so I'm not even sure it's possible.
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
I can relate completely. I don't really have any words of advice as such. For me what helps is being around positive people who make you feel safe and happy.
The horrible thoughts are still there but you have to ask yourself, would these people want to be around me if i was 'black and rotten and dirty?' The answer is no.
I can relate too. I was wondering if some CBT could be helpful with this. You could learn about thinking errors and reprocess some of the ideas you have about yourself. Things like thought records can help because if you're like me, you've unintentionally trained yourself to turn to certain thinking patterns over and above all others, and perhaps sometimes unquestioningly.
I've found thought records helpful because it allows you to think of alternative thoughts to the ones you generally give most weight to.
So like if you say to yourself 'I'm crap at x and x and x and I'll never amount to anything' and this causes you distress, and you find yourself caught in thinking like that, doing records will remind you to also think things like 'ah, buti'm good at y and y and y', or 'I might not be where I expected to be, but I have options and could do z and z and z'.
That's a crap.example but hopefully you get where I'm cominf from.
Marshmallow: yes, being around positive people who love and accept me does help to some extent, but I still feel like those people are biased and 'have' to like me (or at least love me) or have a job to do. Nobody likes me for who I REALLY am because nobody but me knows the 'real' me. Does that make sense?
whirlpools: thank you. I've had a lot of therapy and still get help now, but nothing seems to help. I might try a thought record though, although I think it's going to be very full! I also find it difficult to rationalise the good sides of me - they feel superficial.
Sorry to be awkward but this is a massive problem for me.
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
Those who feel low self esteem, must read story of Indian Prime Minister's Narendra Modi. How Chai Wala (Tea Vendor) become Most Beloved India's Prime Minister.
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He had a dazzling trip. He checked out the Ramkrishna Objective in Rajkot and after that the Belur mathematics in Kolkata. After that he left for Guwahati as well as signed up with an ashram that was developed by Swami Vivekananda in the foothills of the Mountain ranges. At some time later on he returned residence just for some time as well as once again laid out for Ahmedabad.
The daydreamer Narendra Modi has actually claimed, "I did not obtain a chance to need the nation, yet I have obtained a chance to live for the nation". This male that had actually longed for offering every house in the state of Gujarat with power, was successful in satisfying his desire by establishing Asia's biggest solar area. His desire task includes solar energy plants at Asia's biggest solar park at Charnka town, in addition to solar systems at 10 various other locations in Gujarat. Offering his very own state and also its individuals a worldwide acknowledgment Modi had actually claimed, "This accomplishment is not just an action in the instructions of power preservation, it gives the globe with a vision that exactly how the power demands of the future generations could be resolved in an eco-friendly way".
Modi left no rock unchecked asking yourself how you can offer his country. He likewise imagined signing up with the Indian Military; however solid resistance from his family members never ever allowed him satisfy this desire. Modi has actually consistently been a magnificent daydreamer. He has actually constantly been led by his concept of Antyodaya or 'offering the farthest'. Therefore, since Modi ended up being the Principal Preacher of Gujarat in 2001, he guaranteed a constant development of GDP. As a matter of fact, Gujarat has actually revealed a general development including farming, manufacture as well as solutions under this guy of property development.
Maintaining track with their household practice, the father and mothers of Narendra Modi obtained him involved to Jashodaben Chimanlal when he was merely thirteen. However Narendra, that was recognized for being 'balswayamsevak' or a jr cadet in RSS had actually currently offered his heart to national politics. For that reason also after he obtained wed to Jashodaben prior to he was eighteen, Narendra can not seek his marriage life as well as left the home of chase his desires.
Not surprising that, Modi has actually advanced throughout the years as a real leader of, for and also by the individuals. His perspective has actually made him get to brand-new elevations of appeal a lot to make sure that he won the 2014 Lok Sabha elections in India by a substantial bulk and also made a tidy sweep.
Little Narendra visited college as well as helped his dad in offering tea in their tea delay at the neighborhood train line terminal of Vadnagar. An ardent enthusiast of arguments as well as reading, Narendra invested hrs in his academia collection. Having good friends from various neighborhoods, he commemorated Hindu along with Muslim celebrations with the very same passion. Modi was just 8 years of ages when he obtained presented to the Rashtriya Swayamsevak Sangh (RSS) and also satisfied Lakshmanrao Inamdar, the guy that is understood for being his political expert as well as coach.
Relocated by the jobs ok Swami Vivekananda, Modi started a quest of spiritualism and also handled himself the obligation of satisfying Swamiji's long for a 'Jagad Master Bharat'. Narendra was just 9 years of ages when a substantial flooding in the Tapi stream produced a chaos. This little child took an advance and also establish a food delay with his good friends. The profits were all contributed for the alleviation job. His effort to offer his Mom India at this childhood was certainly amazing which quietly laid the structure of the production of a deserving Head of state of the country.
It is claimed that your perspective is your height; it identifies exactly how high you fly. This easy yet vital declaration was well comprehended by a little kid from Vadnagar, India.
In September 1950, simply 3 years after India obtained her Freedom from the British Raj, Narendra, the child of Damodardas Modi as well as Hiraba Modi, was birthed right into a family members that needed to battle difficult in order to make ends fulfill. Vadnagar in Mehsana area of Gujarat, the area that was as soon as checked out by the popular Chinese tourist Hiuen Tsang as well as a location understood for its grandeur in regards to spirituality and also knowing was the home town of Narendra. It remained in their tiny solitary floor property that Narenda, the 3rd of the 6 kids of the Modis started to imagine a life where he can clean the rips of the experiencing individuals as well as make a large distinction to their lives.
The day Narendra Damodardas Modi vowed in as the 15th Head of state of India was a day that guaranteed a clean slate.
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
