Triggering (SI) - desires...

Les · 08-11-2007, 09:57 PM

i have this great desire to cut. not even an urge. its like i see cutting on one side as this great amazing thing and on the other i know its horrible and ruining my life. ive gone 6 months now and all i can think about is cutting and so badly that i need stitches or worse. kinda the worse. i can see how far apart it would open, etc. what is wrong with me and how do i stop this before it all starts again?

d.rocky · 08-11-2007, 11:16 PM

hey,

i hope i have replied in time :/ how you doing now?
you've said yourself you know how bad it is so try and focus on that.
6 months is a really long time thats great by the way!
needing stitches or worse? its not worth it. seriously its not.
your asking for help to stop it so that shows that you dont really want to do it. not all of you anyway.
listen to the part of you that doesnt want to do it.
sorry bit rubbish today been a long day
take care and stay safe ok?

.rob.

quautia · 08-11-2007, 11:25 PM

Les, I see in an old post of yours you mention your interest in going to an NA/AA meeting - have you been to one? Tonight might be a good night to look up a local meeting and go along to listen. I go to AA/NA and get a lot out of them, it helps with my self-harm too.

Remember, 'this too will pass'. Its hard, horrible and painful, but you will get through this. Keep putting in the right actions and the right feelings will come.

Les · 09-11-2007, 03:38 AM

thanks for replying. its getting easier. i had a couple good phone calls, and now its almost bedtime. thanks for your support.
hugs
les.

breathoflife · 09-11-2007, 04:20 AM

(((hugs)))

Just try to keep yourself distracted and think of other things whenever you have those thoughts.

You have accomplished so much in the past 6 months by not SIing!

One day at a time.

Tinkerbell87 · 09-11-2007, 04:27 AM

First off, congratulation on 6 months that is great. I know the feeling, it will pass hang in there sweetie!

Artyom · 09-11-2007, 04:47 AM

i have moments like those. like before i do it, i find it to be the best thing ever, yet i know that its not helping me a damn bit and making me feel worse =/

congrads on the 6 months, what an achievement.

_plastic · 09-11-2007, 12:41 PM

6 month wow you are amazing :wink:
having and urge or desire to cut is normal cause you get used to this method to release the pressure
nothing is wrong with you babe ! ***cuddles***