Help with changing schools.

[bliv272]

I'm not much of a writer so please bear with me. As someone who has dealt with bullying before I can definitely say its not a pleasant experience. Having their words play over and over in your mind. Remembering specific events just like they happened yesterday. You get the picture. So why would I willingly inject myself into a situation where I would become a target for potential predators?
You see, this is where my problem begins to show its true colors. I currently go to a private catholic school in the south who propagate views directly contradictory towards my own. What kind of person would I be if I weren't able to stand behind my beliefs? If I continued to go there I would have to conceal my true self for the fear of being reprimanded as I have done so for years, not just with administrators and teachers but with my family as well. Another aspect of this is that I would have to either force my way into my group of "friends" that were never very friendly towards me and would completely ignore me at the drop of a hat or continue to be alone in a school of 200 as I did for the majority of the last quarter of the school year.
Even if I did transfer to public school the idea of me being alone would definitely not be far off from the truth but the secular ideology that public school enforces is something that greatly appeals to me and would at least make up for the fact that I would become a potential target to people that bullied me once before.
Clarification- I was bullied from 3th grade to 5th grade, transferred to catholic school in 6th grade and am now considering transfering back to public school for 10th grade.
I am honestly at my wit's end with all of this, so any advice is appreciated. Thanks for reading!

[KindaAnnoyed]

Being once a bully victim as well, I can empathize with you. Personally, I don't see a reason why you need to conform just to make friends. I don't really know how missionary school where you live at work but here where I live, not 100% of them are devout ones (most are but there still are the minorities).

Having contradicting beliefs does not mean that you can't be friends. Even me, being an atheist, have a couple of Christian friends. We might not have the same beliefs but as long as we respect each another's beliefs, there really is no reason why we can't be friends. Friends should be people who you can behave like yourself around without feeling the pressure to act. You should only consider transferring if you really feel that studying in a school that preaches to the point that you're uncomfortable is too much to handle. You seem to be too caught on the idea that you'll be a victim of bully wherever you go.

I know its hard to get over the fear of being bullied since you were once a victim but these predators exists in any types of social environment. Just because you go to a public school does not automatically mean you're labelled as a target for bullies. The possibility is there of course but unless you plan to become a hermit or a recluse, this possibility will always exist even into your workplace. Just think of it in a more positive light, a change of environment or an increase pool of people to find friends in for example.

I hope that this comment has somewhat helped you with your dilemma. Feel free to drop me a message if you need a listening ear.

[Unbreakable.]

This is very tricky.
Do you have someone who knows you reasonably well and is familiar with both schools that you can talk to?

Do you know anyone from public school who could be a good starting point in getting to know people and help you settle a little bit?