I am having such a crap time right now my local mind centre has lost its funding and now it could be closed. To make matters worse, in my own town centre there's absolutely nothing and i mean zilch to do. Everything closes due to lack of attendance, government funding cuts and as a result I end feeling back square one, witha absolutely no social life, relapsing depression and anxiety and my trust for all services goes out of the window.
so i end up thimnking sod this, I am gonna spend the next gods knows how long stuck bat home watching netflix (my only small pleasure in life)
job seeking is kinda left to standstill and is making me more and depressed
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
No because due to funding they are closing too or have closed its ever since their funding went down the drain most of the centres are closing
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
You mention that the mind centre could be closed- presuming it is still open now could you seek advice from them about alternate services that might be available?
I am doing that now and it's blank the only option I have adult community college which I absolutely hate and would never turn up even if you paid me or my benefits were frozen. It's totally pointless, in my area it's just a big baby sitting centre for special adults.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
What will you be losing when your local mind shuts? Do you volunteer there at the moment or do you use the drop in or their wrap groups or is it one to one?
Perhaps making a note of what it is you need could help you find alternatives.
I know it's hard and I'm guessing that in the local mind you have found a haven where you feel safe and supported. When we are at risk of losing this the stress can be huge so I feel for you.
Have you considered volunteering elsewhere? The mht will usually have a team that can help with this.
But if you can say what it is you'll be losing the. Perhaps it can give you a clearer idea of what you need.
Hope you find something soon
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I already volunteer where I find really boring and pointless but I gotta go even though I would rather be sat at home on my Mac all day
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
What kind of place do you volunteer at and what is it about the role you find boring? You could look on a wesbite like this: https://do-it.org/ to see if you can find some volunteering that you might find more interesting?
Not a lot apart from getting drunk in the evening there's not much to do and when I do activities they are unfulling and meaningless even though previously I would of enjoyed them I just feel so uninspired, numb and empty.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
This might be a bit out there, but if there is nothing for you to do in your town could you maybe look at moving somewhere else where you can access more support?
How long has this feeling of activities being unfulfilling and meaningless been going on? Have you considered that it could be related to your mental health?
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
My soon to ex friend H has excluded me from absolutely everything social, life and basically she's the queen bee, she has lots of friends, university degree in law and a job. I haven't
My friend B hasn't responded to my calls and texts in months, have I done something wrong?
my ex friend to be, won't speak to me over a disagreement in which i turned up to her place and she never answered the door.
my ex friend K rarely talks as it is we are not close anymore, seeing her once a year over xmas is not a friendship.
my local mind is closing down so thats my so life down the poxy drain, there's no clubs to join in my town unless i like getting hammered /pissed or unless I have learning disability, under 16, years of age, over 65 or a toddler. So telling me to go and make new friends is impossibe and when i do make new friends they give me fake email/mobile numbers that don't exist or with the number Samartains or childline or some other poxy dating number disguised as a mobile number
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Sorry you're struggling with friendships at the moment. I don't know whether or not you have done something wrong with B, but it does sound like he/she is not interested in communicating at the moment, so unfortunately you may need to back off at this point.
Do you have any support with your mental health? Hopefully if your mental health improves you will fee more enjoyment in the things that you do.
Would you consider moving to a different area, as Cat suggested?
Good b is in contact with me at last we are hoping to.see.each other shortly.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
This might be a bit out there, but if there is nothing for you to do in your town could you maybe look at moving somewhere else where you can access more support?
