I've never been psychotic

[Ballerina123]

I've never been psychotic yet I'm on olanzapine that makes me fat, tired and flat. So I'm coming off it.
I'm sick of the side effects when I've neve even been psychotic.
I admit I've had depression but I think that's about it. None of this schizophrenia or bipolar crap.
Just labels.
I'm done with meds. I'm well and happy. What's the point in taking them when they are just giving me brain damage.

[sherlock holmes]

I know I'm no doctor, but from your posts on RYL over the past few years I do think that you have struggled with psychosis before. You said so yourself and you've posted a lot about how to cope with it.

Seeing as you're being admitted to hospital tonight I expect it was something to do with stopping your meds? Maybe you're not thinking too clearly right now, but you will start to feel better soon once everything is sorted out in hospital.

[Ballerina123]

I haven't stopped my meds yet.
I use to think I'd had psychosis coz other people said but if I really think about it I didn't have it.

I am so well right now.

[consequential]

I have spoken to you loads and have read your posts. You have 100% suffered from psychosis to the point where you could barely leave the house. I know because I've been there. You are unwell right now which makes you think that you are ok but it's obvious you aren't. Take the meds.

[Ballerina123]

I haven't had "psychosis" since September last year. And I'm unsure that was real psychosis maybe just bad anxiety.
I'm gonna speak to my team about it I think. I'm just not convinced

[Snow White.]

Is it possible you haven't had psychosis since September last year because you've had periods of wellness and also been on medication?

I do think it's worth speaking to your team about it, and I wouldn't change anything about your medication until you do. Maybe it's worth trying another one that doesn't have the same symptoms, but you risk a relapse going off them completely.

[Ballerina123]

I spoke to my cc today and she said my diagnosis is schizoaffective because I have had sever paranoia, delusions and though disorder.
Could that just be anxiety though.
Or just my bpd traits? Some people with bpd get a paranoia and anxiety.
She said my Dr won't change my diagnosis.
She asked me to stay on my meds so I guess I will. For now anyway. But when I next see my psych I'm gonna see if he thinks I could just have bad anxiety and depression rather than schizoaffective disorder or psychosis.

[sherlock holmes]

What happened about the mental health act assessment yesterday?

[Snow White.]

In my opinion severe paranoia, thought disorder and delusions are not symptoms of depression or anxiety but are more fitting in with schizoaffective disorder.

What would happen if you just accepted this diagnosis is written on their paper? Ultimately nobody else has to know, I just worry you might get too attached to the idea that it's "just anxiety" and you don't need your medication.

At some point you did fit the criteria, that's why you got the diagnosis. If you have good reason to you can ask but it sounds like your CC explained it.

I'm not sure if this is coming out clear.

But I'm glad you'll stay on your medication, very safe decision.

[Rosie3901505]

Unfortunately one of the symptoms of any disorder is that we don't think we have symptoms and that they are not that bad. In January I stopped my meds for two weeks because I didn't think I was bipolar and that I didn't need meds and it was all in my head and secretly I was just a liar looking for attention. The only flaw in my logic was that all my symptoms returned with a vengeance and I did get psychotic even though I haven't had symptoms of that in a very long time. I returned to my psychiatrist office in pretty rough shape and started new meds and I have been better ever since.

I invite you to analyze your thinking. Even if you think stopping is a good idea, it is best to do so under medical supervision.