So those who know me well will be aware of my history with mental health services- essentially I've spent the past 6 or so years either not engaging properly, being on waiting lists or being slightly forgotten about (#abandonment issues). I decided recently to go privately, partly because I was supposed to be assigned a new worker in the New Year and I kind of got bored of waiting, partly because it means I can have evening appointments which is better because of my work and partly because if I'm paying money for it, I've got more motivation to really try to engage and not be a troll.
I've sorted it out now and I have a first session/assessment tomorrow and this feels like a really positive step for me to start to properly sort my head out and I just wanted to share that.
When we lose twenty pounds... we may be losing the twenty best pounds we have! We may be losing the pounds that contain our genius, our humanity, our love and honesty. ~Woody Allen
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That sounds really positive :) I hope it goes well!
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
I can't hug this because my browser appears to have replaced the 'hug' button with your signature pic. But this is such good news, hopefully you can now get the help you need and deserve :)
'It's an impossible choice ... I'll just have to hope that when I flip the coin it somehow explodes and kills me.'
"You're not scared of climbing mountains. You're scared that you can't make them move."
So proud of you! I hope going privately suits you and that you find it helpful. Remember that if you don't click with one counsellor there are plenty of others (though hopefully you do get on!).
Thanks for all your support and asking how it went :)
It was just an assessment really and it felt ok at the time and then afterwards I felt guilty for saying loads but that's kinda silly since talking is what you're supposed to do :p
I'm so proud of you as I am aware how much that must have taken you.
Hopefully you will get the help that you need and deserve so that you can keep moving on from things and make even more steps towards a positive future.
Well done on being proactive about getting some counselling!
I'm glad the assessment session went OK. I really hope it continues to go well for you. You deserve to get something back, you're always giving so much out on here!
For you to be here now trillions of drifting atoms had somehow to assemble in an intricate and intriguingly obliging manner to create you. It's an arrangement so specialized and particular that it has never been tried before and will only exist this once. That is of course the miracle of life.
-Bill Bryson
Don't ever frown because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.
Thanks for all your support guys. Unfortunately at my second session today I got told that I'm too complex and some other random stuff so she can't see me so it's back to square one. Really can't be doing with the effort of convincing myself to be brave and seek support all over again.
I'm really sorry to hear that. I agree with Carmen, you have taken such a big step, and this doesn't change that at all.
I know it must be disappointing and disheartening, but at least she's told you that early on, so you haven't wasted too much time on her. There will be other counsellor who are able to help. It is worth it to keep trying.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
