Want to give up!!!

[broken40scars]

I am slowly going downhill again. I just don't want to eat. I haven't weighed myself but I don't need to as I'm getting fat again. I have a tummy, which I hate and I can't feel my ribs anymore. Clothes are feeling tight too which pisses me off. I have been in recovery for almost 2 years but I'm just sick of fighting. Why can't I just wave that white flag and give up?

[mousetrousers]

I wish I could give you a real hug. I so know what this is like. Do you have anyone in your life to talk to?
Don't give up, it's hard - sometimes overwhelmingly - but it is worth the fight to be free. Remember what made you try for recovery in the first place? Focus on that, or focus on all the positives that recovery brings. Write two lists. Reasons to Recover and Reasons to Relapse. Which one is longer?
2 years is an awesome achievement. Don't throw it all away for lies and pain. Sending prayers and hugs

[AlliraWolf]

Why haven't you come to me? We could have ate something together, having the food along the same lines. You haven't slept for a week either? Sis, you're running yourself ragged. This isn't good and it isn't healthy. You need to get some rest, even if it is just a few hours of a nap. It doesn't have to be long, it just has to be something. You most certainly DO NOT need to weigh yourself, you never have to. Your tummy is a sign of you truly recovering, you have earned that tummy. You may be sick of fighting, but the fight is worth the struggle. Your life is worth the struggle of fighting every step of the way to recover. You want to know why you can't wave the white flag? There are people who depend on you for support and who offer you support in the same ways along the same lines and for a lot of the same reasons. You have changed and helped many lives, people may have died without your help and support, and I would have been among them. Your life, your heart, your courage, your strength, and your passion are very much needed, wanted, and desired. I only wish that one day you could see that.

[broken40scars]

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Originally Posted by mousetrousers

I wish I could give you a real hug. I so know what this is like. Do you have anyone in your life to talk to?
Don't give up, it's hard - sometimes overwhelmingly - but it is worth the fight to be free. Remember what made you try for recovery in the first place? Focus on that, or focus on all the positives that recovery brings. Write two lists. Reasons to Recover and Reasons to Relapse. Which one is longer?
2 years is an awesome achievement. Don't throw it all away for lies and pain. Sending prayers and hugs

I wish you could too mousetrousers because I could really use one right now. Yeah I have a couple but I don't like burdening them with my problems. I was doing so well on the recovery road then BAMM knocked right back down. Yeah I can try that and thanks sweetie.

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Originally Posted by BulimiaBaby

Why haven't you come to me? We could have ate something together, having the food along the same lines. You haven't slept for a week either? Sis, you're running yourself ragged. This isn't good and it isn't healthy. You need to get some rest, even if it is just a few hours of a nap. It doesn't have to be long, it just has to be something. You most certainly DO NOT need to weigh yourself, you never have to. Your tummy is a sign of you truly recovering, you have earned that tummy. You may be sick of fighting, but the fight is worth the struggle. Your life is worth the struggle of fighting every step of the way to recover. You want to know why you can't wave the white flag? There are people who depend on you for support and who offer you support in the same ways along the same lines and for a lot of the same reasons. You have changed and helped many lives, people may have died without your help and support, and I would have been among them. Your life, your heart, your courage, your strength, and your passion are very much needed, wanted, and desired. I only wish that one day you could see that.

When I don't sleep my stomach doesn't like food. Now those stupid voices are coming back and music isn't helping. Sis my tummy is huge. I hate it. I want to cut it off of me. It makes me look pregnant and I'm not :( You always say things like that and then I start to cry. I know I would have lost you if you didn't open up to me like you did