relapsed

[beanybaby]

well i have not been here in a long time about 5 years i was recovered didnt harm had the erge but always got threw it i got married so happy with my life my wife supports me in every way as she also a recoverd sh i met her here . but last year and the start of this year i was told i have cervial cancer that knocked me for 6 and the erges came back stronger i have stared to self harm again i thought id do it once that all but when i felt the relise i did it again and again now im back in that cycle cant tell my wife incase i trigger her she so worryed about me and i cant tell her how im feeling last night i tryed to end my life again first time in years but when i thoought of her it stoped me and a old friend from ryl helped me too thank u sallymay for being there for me that night i know in life we will have the erges to do it but life we can relaps like i did im sorry to all who supported me in stoping

[Margo]

Christ that's some **** new to get. I am not surprised you ended up harming. I'd have probably done the same.

There seem to be a few of us who've relapsed recently. I know it can feel shameful and hard to accept but it's a coping mechanism and it's easy to go back to what we know.

My advice would be to tell your partner. She will understand. There is nothing to prove she will self harm over this. I'm sure she'd be really saddened you felt you couldn't tell her. She loves you.

Youre going to be in for some hard times to come. Don't make it worse by hiding your pain. She will understand.

Take care

Matthew x

[crazykat]

That is alot to cope with and get your head around, it is understandable that you resorted back to self-harm. Don't beat yourself up over it though, you are going through enough without adding giving yourself a hard time over this. Talk to your partner, she would want to know. You need support right now, don't fight this alone