It's my birthday, I'm partly excited, but partly anxious/nervous.
It's a Sunday, there are no buses, so not like I can go out anywhere, other than local walking distance, so it's the usual, wanting to be sober for my birthday, and having to avoid people.
And then there's family expectations, they all try to push me to have a birthday drink, but it's never just 1, and feeling vulnerable after cutting really recently, I don't want to slip back into a downward spiral and cut again.
I do have plans to Celebrate, but I was going to celebrate a few days late, on Tuesday, make it a joint Birthday, and St Patricks' Day celebration, I'm picking my Birthday Cake up from a cafe who are making it for me on Tuesday, and am taking a few family and friends with me for a small celebration, where I can be sober and enjoy my birthday, the cafe is the local Drug and Alcohol Agency's social enterprise and is an alcohol free zone, staffed by volunteers.
I'm trying to be positive, but I know my family and friends are expecting me to go out with them tonight for a drink.
I hope everything stays calm and I can have a nice time for my birthday
