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The one that got away..
Hey guys. I need a place to talk. I need a place for advice so I ended up here. I have a story.. and i'll tell you what, why, how, and when this all happened.
I'm 26 years old now.
When I was 13 I moved to a town that was in a different county, so I knew noone. I had a very nice neighbor but he was 4 years older than me and didn't mind giving me a few friends, his name was Justin. We liked the same stuff despite the age difference so we got along great. I was never a loner before i moved to this new county and the town was called Saraland. In Saraland for the year I stayed to myself for the most part. I had 2 good friends at this time one of which introduced me to a girl. Now let me just tell you about this girl. She had to of been the greatest person that i've met up to that time in my life. We hung out started doing alot of stuff together. Couldn't wait to see her every day. And she wasn't one for just straight up showing me emotions but she was the look blush giggle type. Well we got close, talked on the phone for hours and hours at night, I even sang her some songs when I was little on the phone to comfort her. I remember one specifically like it was yesterday, it was a Randy Travis song. Well it got to the point because I was too shy, I would talk to her good friend (Maybe even best friend at the time) about my feelings toward this girl that I had completely fallen in love with. I told her friend that I was going to marry her one day and her friend who I think was off mentally, I mean by a lot, and her friend flipped out. It wasn't until late that I had realized that the girl herself was probably in love with the same girl that I was in love with. So I stopped talking to the girl I was in love with, moved on, became a self hating A-hole that tortured myself physically because it helped, you know? I dissapeared from her life for about 10 years.
I thought about her the entire time, through all of the girls I dated and I had been with. She's never left my mind, she's my one that got away.
2 Weeks ago I made an attempt to talk to her through facebook. The outcome was nothing of what I expected. She talked to me. Said she forgave me back then. So we've been talking, around 2,000 messages on facebook in the past 2 weeks. 2 phone calls the first one was a 5 hour phone call, the second was about an hour and 20 minutes which was just last night. We are going to meet up Sunday to see what we think about each other on a person to person level, I think she's starting to like me again. My feelings for her have never changed even though 10 years have grown us apart, my feelings will always be there for her. What do I need to do? I need some advice on how I need to take it this meeting otherwise i'm going to be a big ball of jello when I see her again. I may studder, i'm nervous, I've never been in this situation and it's one of those.... I don't want to mess up, you know?
Thank you for all of the help,
-Kevin
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