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[the sky is falling down]

have you ever tried to vent to someone and they look at you like your crazy like your life is perfectly fine and your selfish for wanting there help knowing the situation you are in and everything you say is a call for help and they push it to the side or tell you you are throwing a fit have you ever been told it was your fault for self harm or attempts of suicide when all you wanted is for them to hold you back from your thoughts and cry with you tell you its all gonna be OK just begging for compassion then begging alone among millions but instead you are crazy "emo"your family walks around acting as if their fine when you know there all lies they walk all walk around like they all are better then you and the most they can do is tell you they don't get it they ask you questions and when you answer they block it out because its not what they wanna hear call emergency when all you want is them there help but they throw you in to be feed on by lions and sunken up by anti depressions and stranger you wonder how stupid can people be were there expect you to talk to a stranger when all you want is them you just wanna be heard not twisted into thinking its all your fault and sometimes you think it is all you why is it so hard for people to understand when your grammar is so clear set down and loud and your scars are so dark deep and visible even hurt they don't notice and even put together they still don't care its like they are pouring salt in my cuts hoping i bleed from the sting why is it so hard for people to notice me ?

[Isoverity]

I think "other" people usually don't notice people because they too are focused on being noticed and not noticing. Hope that makes sense. Almost everyone is preoccupied with their own issues, wants etc. When you're young its part of the territory to want people to notice you because some people are supposed to (parents, teachers etc). Part of getting better is to realize you don't need to be noticed as much as you think. The "hunger" to be noticed is actually part of the problem and stems from not being properly loved at home etc etc. Practically everyone qualifies for that club - which is why people don't have the ability to notice people. When someone realises everyone is kind of maladjusted they can more easily forgive people and let go of resenting them. Suppressed anger is what drives a lot of SI. When people lose extra emotions there is less need for "coping" and "release". Thats probably not what you want to hear but give things a few years.