is it weird to be scared of recovery?

[musicsavesmanylives]

is it normal to be scared of recovery? like i dont know. at my darkest times all i pray to do is to get better. to not feel this way all the time. to just enjoy life.

but then on the other side im scared. it doesnt seem normal for me to be happy or feel free and safe. its a scary feeling for me. i cant get myself to want to be happy totally. i feel guilty being happy. i just think of how i dont deserve it and how so many people i love are so sad and just i dont know. does this make sense?

Yeh it is scary Hun I feel that everyday...my therapist described it as when people thought the world was flat n they went exploring

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Hey,

I think it's completely normal to be scared about this. When you've been feeling one way for so long, even the idea of feeling differently is daunting.

I guess the only thing to remember is that it IS worth it. I used to define myself by my depression, and the idea of losing that meant losing myself and my identity, but it's the best thing I've ever done and I have never felt better.

The analogy above is a perfect one.

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