I've been really sick for days here alone. I told my friend I couldn't make lunch cos i was very unwell and I got a one word reply. My family don't bother with me and when I rang me mother she just say what did I want her to do about it and hung up on me. I think I would be better off not living. I can't take this loneliness anymore. I don't know why i'm alone and why nobody helps me or comes near me. My throat is totally swollen and I feel really unwell due to the disease I keep picking up viruses. I just lay in bed all day in the dark alone and all I got from my mother was abuse. I said why am I alone it's not normal and she just barked at me.
I don't know what to do seriously, everyone treats me like dirt. It was the same in work and in college and I know it's not me or the way I look so what is it? I think I was adopted and nobody told me. Do you know out of hundreds of people I know none of them added me on facebook or spoke to me in years? It's very strange yet they all still speak to one another alright.
She started shouting at me why didn't I leave my sister come up here. My sister is a very bad alcoholic and is drunk all the time and refuses to drive a certain number of miles due the fact that she will be caught drunk driving, when I say this my mother hangs up on me and says it's my fault. How can it be my fault my sister is a drunk and can't drive.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
No it's not your fault your sister is an alcoholic, and no it's not fair the way people have treated/are treating you, I'm sorry you've had to go through that.
It's particularly horrible and lonely when you're ill because you want to feel there's someone there to care and help, I understand that, and you deserve to be cared for.
Are you looking after yourself ok - getting lots of rest & fluids etc? I hope you're feeling better soon xx
I just had ginger and lemon tea and some paracetamol. My mother is very nasty to me and they show me no love whatsoever. I was always ignored and treated like nothing. They couldn't even come to my graduation. I feel like no matter what I do nobody will ever give a damn about me. Every day I pray that someone will see me and care about me and it never happens.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
Lemon tea is good for when you're feeling ill. So is honey and tea to soothe your sore throat. I also find hot cordial good for when I'm feeling ill.
You've had a number of threads on here discussing this loneliness and your family, what support would you like with it?
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♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I just get desperate so I come on here. My throat is swollen and I feel awful. I would go to the doctor but my car is in the garage. I think I need an antibiotic due to the illness I have. I know I need to move but the job I got involves travel so hopefully that will be a start.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
Just been to the emergency doctor and he was really nice, he told me I had a serious sinus infection which spread. i had to crawl out of bed and collect my car from the garage and drive myself there and then go collect the meds. i haven't been able to go food shopping cos I am too sick. I rang home and she was like oh what can we do for you, we have our own problems. My sister rang me drunk and started screaming so I just hung up on her. I asked the doctor would my living conditions be contributing to this and he said most definitely. It's freezing here with rising damp on the walls and I am sick all the time over it. I do need a council place or emergency accom to get me out of here. The so called friend I used to text told me who did I think i was expecting the council to help me and that I didn't deserve a place. But I am seriously ill and have been nearly nine years on the list. If my health is suffering I do think I deserve a place.
I feel really low :( I have to go to the photographer cos I booked in to take pictures but now I can't and I can barely get out of bed. I feel awful. Need hugs (preferably from a nice man!)
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
I feel like I'm dying. I had nothing to eat for a day cos I couldn't get out of bed to prepare food. I don't know what to do, I am very very ill and nobody is helping me. My family don't bother, I feel like I could die and nobody would even notice. i don't know what I've done to deserve this never ending pain.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
I just wanted to let you know I have been reading it over the past few days and it does sound like you are having a difficult time, but I haven't really known what to say to help you. Is there anything you are looking for in terms of support in this thread that might make it easier for people to help support you?
Thank you x i need to know what to do to be a better person so people might want to be around me or like me. I feel like a failure no matter what I achieve in life, people always treat me like dirt and I don't know what to do. I feel empty and stupid and lost.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
I'm really struggling. I haven't been this low in ages. Nobody gives a f***. I'm going to be alone forever. I can't do anymore i can't try anymore with people. I'm finished.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
I'm sorry you feel that way, however having read through a lot of your threads you have received a lot of good advice relating to this issue and I just wondered if you had tried any of that?
All I can do is leave. What else have they said only that. It's hard like cos I have no way to support myself. I mean that's what everyone said in all the threads. I'm not here trying to annoy people, I am genuinely very isolated and I'm not the only one who makes threads. I might try looking at flats up the country but there is a huge housing shortage in Ireland, with people homeless etc, it's on the news every day.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
I know, I've been really busy trying to organise my two new jobs and the last two weeks i have been in bed so couldn't leave the house even. I joined a dating site and I'm going to see what happens. I would like to join a meditation group maybe. Up till now I couldn't control my thoughts and I was in pain because of that. I suppose I need to give myself a break, I have only graduated from college last month. I just feel very lonely. And nobody reaches out to me and it hurts. Plus people are very cruel to me and abusive.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
It does sound like you are making some good steps towards not being as lonely. Maybe focus on the positive rather than the negative? I hope that you feel better soon.
I was admitted into hospital and am home now alone again. I rang my mother and she just shouted at me. nobody rang me today to see how I was, the nurse never asked me was I going to be ok. I have nobody and I am at rock bottom. i don't think people get it, nobody cares about me and I don't know how I am going to get out to buy food or anything. I can't make friends becos everyone ignores me. I don't think i can go on like this.
My mother said I imagined being made homeless? How the **** could I imagine that, I thrown out by my father and beaten up by him, she said it never happened. Like what planet is the woman living on.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
If your parents make you feel so bad is it really worth trying to stay in contact with them? It sounds like they are just making everything worse. Did people actually know you where in hospital? It is possible they didn't ring because they didn't know they could or didn't even know you where in hospital.
Can you not buy food through online shopping?
Also, you have had a lot of advice over this situation and it is really starting to feel like you actually do not want to take the advice on board and instead just want to moan about how nothing changes and how terrible your life is. I'm not saying this to be mean or to have a go, it is just how it appears. The only way it can improve is if you try to change it. No one else can do it for you. Yes it is scary making changes but you can do it!
As another point, have you ever thought about moving into a house share so that even when you are stuck in the house you are not home alone 24 hours a day?
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
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