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Feeling Vulnerable & Scared
I've been feeling very manic recently, when I get manic I feel a sudden aggression but try my hardest to divert my attention with things that will distract me, I get angry & emotional at myself, I get so triggered that I feel like cutting myself, despite not having cut for well over a year & a half.
One of the things I did as a feel good distraction was cut off my long hair that I was able to sit on because of it's length, with hair clippers, a number zero, no comb on the clippers.
Another thing I like to do is go out & shop, spend money, but I really can't afford it, it's difficult to explain the things I buy, their just things like art supplies & general household items that look nice, to try to make a relaxing environment, lava lamps etc.
Today I went to my GP because I'm struggling with these manic feelings & asked if he'd make me a new referral to the local CMHT but he refused, so I've been left feeling alone with these feelings, I was just wondering if there is anything I can do to get some more support, as my GP seems to have given up on me, I was discharged from the CMHT last year, as they felt I no longer needed their services.
Who do I speak with now? the co-ordinator at Mind? welfare rights? it's always a difficult decision, where mental health rights/discrimination come in to things, I believe that the GP is breaking the law by refusing to make a referral to the CMHT.
Has anyone else come up against this? if so what's the best thing I can do to try to move forward?
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