Reflection

consequential · 03-11-2014, 03:31 AM

I am sorry to be back but anyway: basically everyone treats me like dirt. I get it from everyone and everywhere I go. I went to get my back fixed by a chiropractor and she gave me a lecture on my diet even though I told her i had a very good diet and when I had one slice of brown bread for breakfast she gave me serious grief saying you can't eat grains when you have arthritis. I went to a nutritionist and she said I can't eat white bread wtf like with these people on the whole time. Just cos I am not skinny due to the meds everyone picks at me.
My family are not nice as everyone knows. I told my sister i got a contract and she was like oh you will be used as sex trafficker and be pumped full of heroin and f***ked constantly.
That's what I have to listen to on a daily basis. I have a friend who is on this site and she will prob read this but she fights with me even though I say very little wrong to her. I actually don't know why this is happening. My exes used to hit me and my family also. All of my so called friends have cut me off. I am getting bitter from the loneliness. None of my family would even bother coming to my graduation and nobody makes one minute of effort with me. I don't know what else to do about this.

JusC · 03-11-2014, 07:47 AM

I wouldnt put up with it if i was u. You deserve much better then this. I cant see anything u have done wrong! Your à really nice person what i know. You dont need people like that in ur life. I wouldnt put up with it.

I think its about time u made new friends. Ive been there before when the friends i was with before ended up sticking together without including me. I thought enough was enough and Noé Im happier that i got new friends. Your not gonna get on with everyone. Thats why sometimes u have to do whats best for u.

With ur family, u would think they would be thé ones to always stick by u. Im not sure why they are like that with u. Thats strange! You said things happened in thé past to not get on with ur family. Thats upseting to know. There an auntie or uncle who u get on better to talk to about this?

I dont see what ur body has got to do with this. Why is it there concern? Only urs isnt it. Cant u eat certain foods or something. You got to eat. What u suppose to do lol. You mentioned ur medication, thats why u put on weight?

Do u have a counseller to go and speak to? Im sorry to hear that no one will be at ur graduation but if they arnt gonna be supportive ur better off on ur on. Sorry forgot to say, do u have a bf?

Patent Pending · 03-11-2014, 11:48 AM

Hi there,

I'm sorry to hear you've felt attacked about your diet. At the end of the day, whatever you choose to eat is your decision and no one can make that for you. If they tried to lecture you again, I'd simply advise them that you aren't interested in their opinion on things like that.

As you've been told in many threads, I think moving from where you currently are and starting again could be really helpful, but only you can set those wheels in motion and start to build a better life for yourself.

It's really good you have contracts for jobs, and your family should be happy for you, not using it to bring you down further.

consequential · 03-11-2014, 10:38 PM

This woman who says she is my friend keeps adding and removing me on facebook. I wake up alone then I get all these horrible messages from her about me having no friends and all this. She will prob see this post now but I don't think I can handle abusive people anymore. I'm not perfect but I have been assaulted and abused for years why me like? I am sick of it.
Thanks for the replies. I'm too quiet with people they think they can say what they want. I questioned the nurse why I was set apart in hospital and laughed and mocked by the nurses and furthermore the OT told me it was my own fault I had no friends. Why should I put up with constant belittling behaviour from all?
I had a counsellor in college but since my degree ended I can't see her anymore. It's been a big loss. I don't have bf as nobody comes near me. It is strange to say the least.

JusC · 03-11-2014, 11:57 PM

No u shouldn't have to put up with this. This isn't ur fault that for some reason ur upsetting people when u havent said or done anything wrong. Why should u stand back and let what there saying effect u? There anyone at all who u can go to about this? Thks isn't fair on u. Did u say ur in hospital? What for?

That's a shame u couldn't see ur counseller from college anymore. I would of thought she could of helped u with this but can't. Have u got another counsellor u go and see now? besides college?

This has had a huge effect on ur confidence so I'm not surprised ur feeling the way u do. I think u need to be on ur own for a bit and not be around people so much. I'm not sure where u are now but if u could maybe keep urself to urself for the time being untill u get something sorted out. What that be a good idea?

How is this friend who has deleted u on Facebook and saying all this mean stuff to u? Have u done anything to upset her? I'm sure u havent but why is she so angry with u. That must be a good reason? Don't mention who the friend is on here just in case if they have a look on ur post but they proberly already have but still.

Talk to me anytime :)

consequential · 04-11-2014, 12:21 AM

I don't know all I get is people treating me like dirt all the time. I was in hospital for mh problems and it was hell. Even going to college nobody came near me and you say spend time alone but what choice do I have when nobody speaks to me. I need a collection of pictures for this new job and my family don't bother helping. I asked my sister and she just went on about herself and she took one picture and it was awful. They don't make the effort and yeah that girl will come on here and it will give her more fuel to get abusive. I don't think picking on someone who already is isolated and suffering helps anyone.

JusC · 04-11-2014, 08:42 AM

I do understand how u feel when ur mental illness plays up on u. I've been there. I'm still going through depression so I still know what that feels like. Good to know that it's atleast improved since the coming months.

That's odd to why u get people ignoring u. That do go on in life for everyone to hate u. Are u sure ur just thinking that everyone hates u? cuz again it could be ur mental health what's taking over. Your always gonna get people what dont like ur for something but u can't say everyone hates u.

It's a shame that u have no family at all who can support u. It's very strange. I'm not sure what actual problem seems to be here but I get now that every time there's a problem people blame u. There anything u remember what things kick off like this? With ur Family to not to be there for u or ur friend u mentioned on Facebook deleting? Do u remember anything u have done?

Best to look at what went wrong at first so u can try and make sense to why people are so aganist u. I dont believe everyone is as that can't happen so ur wrong there but u need to look at to why u think people now hate u as in ur family and friend. Once u know the real reason the u can hopefully change for the better of u and then u can either make up with ur friend and family or put it to rest and move on. This is driving u crazy thinking like this. If u want to know why u upset people then I suggest u think long and hard about it and then act after to how u can make up to those people but if u don't want to then u just have to accept ur gonna have to move on and carry on with ur life.

I know u will make new friends. You already have on here so u know no one hates u! I know once u start feeling better in urself u can maybe think about going back to college or going into work. Thats when ur meet new people and u can start again. So try and look into the future and not the past.

Sorry u said u have a job and go to college but why don't people come near u? Are u just over thinking it cuz it dont make no sense to me. They can't just take one look at u and not come near u. That does not happen in life. You give people a chance to get to know them. Are u sure it's not just u what's staying away from people and not making the effort to talk to them? I don't see why no one there would. Have u got a counsellor at college who u can speak to? Do u have a friend who u see there?

Collection of pictures? What job is it? Ok well maybe u should just do it urself. You not actually said what job ur starting but I presume it could be something to do with art or photography. I don't know. When do u start? Are u nerves? See u will have to talk to people there and be around them so why would that be any different to college?

Again it's either that u address the problem as I mentioned above or put it to rest and move on cuz it's not gonna help in the long run u doing nothing and complaining when u havent thought by taking any action for ur problem. I'm not sure why u and ur family dont get on and ur friend but if u dont want this to carry on with the way ur feeling then just leave it as that or make the effort to resolve the problem. Otherwise ut gonna keep going round in circles and everyone's said mostly the same advice u wanted so it's about taking the first step now for u.

With ur friend I would not let that bother u anymore. It shows whatever has happened it can't be resolved but it's wether u want to make things up to her or not. Sometimes u have to look at the situation and make the first move either way. Otherwise u will make new friends and ur be happier.

You have to do whats best for u. Maybe it's just putting urself first for now on and being on ur own for now. What I ment by that earlier is not saying u should forever be alone but try not to surround urself with other people as much if it's going bring u down. Thats why keeping urself to urself may work better in ur favour.

I've said everything needed to say so I can't say no more otherwise I'm gonna keep repeating myself and keep going round in circles.

consequential · 04-11-2014, 08:33 PM

It can't be anything I've done because if someone ignores me how could I have said something. I'm finished college now and I was ignored there for three years. You can't imagine that and that is why I had a breakdown.
I don't have to say what the two jobs are till they take off but I have contracts abd portfolios to manage with id pictures.
I did nothing to that girl, she's been abusive for months. I did say for her to get a job maybe I was wrong but that's good advice. I am judgmental with people but I don't see why I should break my ass working while others just do nothing. I have very strong feelings about this unless the person has cancer or something or has a debilitating illness, but at the same time I have very bad sicknesses and I still do stuff. I don't appreciate people sending me abusive messages either for no reason.
My family have been good to me for money for the last month alright but they don't make much effort otherwise, I have to drive to them it takes two hours and none of them ever come to me or ring me hardly. It's nothing I have done either I am just walked over by everyone and it's always been that way.

consequential · 06-11-2014, 01:35 AM

I had another lecture from the nurse today. She argued with me for an hour over everything I said. I said all I get off everyone is criticism and she was no different. She said all the people ignoring me was in my head. How can you imagine being ignored? People who walk past you and don't look at you, that is impossible to imagine. She keeps on about a social group who are for people who are very unwell and are long term unemployed. I met the OT about this and she insulted me to my face and I refused point blank to go after that.
I am sick of people putting me down and abusing me all the time. Why me? I don't know what it is.