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[Dying_Angel]

Bad day. Big panic attack. Too much crying. Self harm. Suicidal. Thoughts racing. Can't do this anymore. No sleep

[HeartsCry]

Why was your day bad and why haven't you been able to sleep?

[Buttons.]

I'm sorry to hear you have had such a bad day, panic attacks and so on can be so distressing. Did anything in particular trigger your feelings of panic and self harm urges? Sometimes if we can identify and work through the triggers we can find healthier ways of coping with them and improve our mood, even just a little.

[Dying_Angel]

Thanks for the replies

Panic attack was because i went on holiday forgot meds so went without for a few days. Got home and realized i had run out altogether and the office is shut where my meds are kept thankfully maintenance opened the office so i could have them.

No particular reason my day was bad, it was just a bad day. I cant sleep because i have too many thoughts racing round my head and nothing will shut them up!!

Im still really suicidal and self harming daily but i have no one who i can talk to so i guess i should get used to doing this on my own again. I deserve this anyway

[Unbreakable.]

As you are on meds I would conclude that you have some sort of care for MH issues. Maybe you can ask whoever prescribes your meds for support or to refer you for more suitable support?

[JusC]

Have u tried going to the doctor and seeing someone about how ur feeling? It could help so u can hopefully get some counsellor or be refered to a mental health service who can help for this.

If ur finding it hard to sleep u could maybe try these 5 simple tips in to help u get a good night's sleep atleast.

1. Having a relaxing bath

2. Reading before going to be

3. Going to bed early

4. Making urself a hot drink to relax u

5. Turning off tv's, radio or any other form of communication

I would try this and if there still isn't any improvement then I would see the doctor and they hopefully prescribed u with someone. I heard that Calms the herbal remedie can help u get a good nights sleep but make sure u see the doctor first.

You have RYL who u can talk to anytime.

[[Luna]]

I'm sorry you're feeling so rough and you're out of meds. Could you get an urgent appt with your gp or whoever prescribes your meds tomorrow? I know when I miss doses of my meds, my symptoms reappear pretty quickly.

Have you got any plans today to help you keep safe/distracted?
xx

[JusC]

How u feeling ?

Hope ur ok

[Dying_Angel]

Thanks

I have meds now

I do have a counsellor she's off for 3 weeks. And support worker is also of for 2 weeks.

I gave a doctors appointment Tuesday but I'm probably gonna cancel it. CMHT are no help at all.

I just wanna die tbh I don't want anyone to save me. There is no saving me this time

[JusC]

There is something worth saving. I know u got alot more to give. You seem to that have some ppositives steps coming ur way. Your seeing thé doctor, got à counseller and seeing ur CHMT. Thats all good.

Hows thé medication? Is it playing on ur stomach? :(

[Dying_Angel]

Thank you.

U was discharged from CMHT about a month ago. They can do nothing for me.

I had a really bad day. Nearly broke up with the bf. Took a small od and self harmed too much.

I'm really scared to go drs tomorrow they scare me

[JusC]

If that's happened to u then u will have to go doctors cuz u can't put up with ur mental health being out of control all the time. You need to control it. It's having an effect on ur relationship so go to the doctors and see what they suggest.

I'm not sure if u thought about counselling or if go to counselling? That maybe a good idea for u right now.

See how u feel today and if ur feeling worse try and get the doctor to come out and see u. As its an emergency appointment u need. Are u doing anything today? If not then I would ring the doctor first thing.

I'm here if u wanna talk

[[Luna]]

Hey there, I'm sorry you had such a crappy day yesterday. Sounds like things feel scary and out of control. Does anyone know about the od? It's really advisable to get checked out. Could you tell the gp?

I hope the appointment goes well and you're having a better day.
xx

[Dying_Angel]

Thank you

I do have a counsellor but I'm not seeing her till 14 November as she is off for 3 weeks. I told the Dr about overdoses. Dr didn't seem to concerned. I have to go back in a couple of weeks.

Feel so crap. Really wanna Od again. I can't do this anymore I want to die

[[Luna]]

I'm sorry the doctor wasn't helpful.
If you feel at risk could you go to a&e? Please try not to take another od.
Thinking of you xx

[JusC]

It's best to go back to doctor straight away once u see the doctor after the three weeks have gone. Couldn't they get u to see someone out of hours or?

Good to know that ur counsellor is coming back soon. You can talk to her about what's goingon as u need someone to talk to . Its good that u got people on here to talk to two. I'm not sure if u have family or friends? There anything u do in ur spare time?

I'm here if u wanna talk also.

JusC

[Dying_Angel]

Thank you. I have a few friends and bf but I dnt like to burden them with my crap.


It's oki. Everything will be oki. I've decided dying I'd what I want. Self harming is not helping as much. My head is a mess. I can't do this

[JusC]

No don't say that. You entilled to have ur life like anyone else. Your saying this cuz ur not in a good frame of mind at the moment. Its good to talk to someone about how ur feeling. Ok maybe not ur bf or friends but what about a counsellor?

It will be ok in the end yes but don't let it drive u away cuz u can get through this with the right help and support.

I'm here if u wanna talk

JusC

[Dying_Angel]

I do have a counsellor but she's been off for 3 weeks. I shall see her next week.

I don't deserve to live. I am a waste of oxygen.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh I just want to be dead

[JusC]

No please dont say that. You dont. I really like u. You nice person. You can be my friend on here :)

Bless u. Im glad ur seeing her next week. ..

PM me if u want x

JusC