Contains abuse - i cannot do this alone anymore

[notstrongenough14]

Hi everyone.
I am new here. I won't be giving out any private information, but I am lost and need help. I am a married mother of two kids, and I struggle with substance abuse. I can only go about two weeks clean before I mess up again. The guilt that comes along with the whole situation is getting to be too much. My significant other works out of state, so I spend most of my time alone. I cannot find a job, so the more free time I have, the more I end up choosing wrong. I keep wishing I could get to a point where I could be a once in a blue moon kind of person. I know, deep down, I'll never be that person, and I need to drop everything. I am so scared! I've been doing things for 15 years, I dont know anything else! Can anyone suggest anything? I have no friends, and I don't know where else to turn. Thank you for your support and time.

[StormCloud]

I struggle with substance abuse too. Even though I'm only fifteen, I can relate with the whole being alone part, and especially the feeling guilty part. But, I must say, even two weeks is a good start!

Fifteen years is a long time, but that doesn't mean it's impossible to recover even if it feels like it. Do you have any professional help/support through this? If not, it might be a good idea. Sometimes they can say the right thing or suggest the right idea that will get you out of the place you don't want to be in.

You can always turn to RYL for help. We're here for you:)

*hugs*

[crazykat]

I myself don't have experience with this but wanted to offer my support anyways. I think you have been very brave reaching out to us for support. I found this article that gives some good tips on things on how you could go about recovery. I hope it is helpful

[youngatheart]

How are you doing? You can message me anytime you feel lonely< im a mum too xx

[raspberry_swirl]

Hi,
I don't know if this is the kind of thing that would help you, but AA and NA seem to be everywhere in the USA and have helped a lot of people.

If not, as it's not for everyone, I guess I'd try to find other things to fill time, lots of activities, and especially places where you might make friends?

Good luck xxx