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[Nat]

I start in a new school tomorrow for a few weeks I am really worried. Already had a double dose of valium nothing seems to be working I just want to run and not stop. How far do you think I could get before the police came after me. Just feel like withdrawing as much money as possible and disappearing for a few days or weeks. Does that even make sense just a break away from everything and to be fired so I dont have to take responsibility of making decisions. SO tempted to stop all medication but wont - for now. Just a warm word of something would be good but what I dont really know. Sorry Im a shi*e human I deserve nothing.

[battlekitten]

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Originally Posted by Nat

Just feel like withdrawing as much money as possible and disappearing for a few days or weeks. Does that even make sense just a break away from everything and to be fired so I dont have to take responsibility of making decisions.

Wow, I have thought this so many times before, to just run away from everything, somewhere you can just become invisible and anonymous. It doesn't make you a terrible person, just a very anxious person under a lot of stress and needing some help and reassurance. I hope that tomorrow isn't too bad and that you get through it ok, maybe try thinking of dealing with it one lesson at a time? Try and do something really nice to unwind a bit tonight, cup of herbal tea? Chocolate? Bath? Most of all know that you are not a sh*te person at all, take care of yourself and good luck for tomorrow *hugs*

[slipping up again]

hope it went ok for you today.
Take care of yourself,
best wishes Xx