Feeling like it isn't real

teal · 17-04-2014, 10:17 PM

Sometimes I feel like life is like a dream, like isn't real, like i'm not real. It's like i'm watching life from a TV screen and it makes me panic because it's such a scary feeling. I get lost in my thoughts and people think i act weird because of it. It's hard to explain, but mostly it's this. Sometimes it's like something bad is going to happen and I panic because I think i'm going to die soon and everything around me heightens my senses and I become scared and panicked. I tried explaining to my psychiatrist months ago but she didn't cared and ignored me and this last appointment I didn't mention because all she cared was about my blood pressure and changing my meds so I stopped gaining weight and being sleepy (i'm on anti psychotics).
But also, my nurse told me this was "mania", and I was a bit confused because I never thought this was "mania", I thought it was something else. However all this to try and ask you if you think this is normal and if it has anything to do with my psychosis or if its something different? I know none of you could diagnose me but my doctors don't care or explain it so badly to me I understand nothing.
I'm sorry if i'm confusing, but I'm just a bit triggered to self harm today and my thoughts are racing right now.

Laura2.0 · 18-04-2014, 10:18 AM

I get the feeling that nothing is real a lot, but that's because I dissociate a lot. So I guess that's different from you.
If you don't understand what your psychiatrist is talking about, could you try to ask him if he could explain it in a way you can understand what is happening? I think your psychiatrist or dr are more qualified to tell you what is happening with you then, and they know you a lot better than people here on the forum.

Wonderland. · 19-04-2014, 09:15 AM

Whilst I am no doctor, it sounds like some form of dissociation. You could ask your psych about it when you next see them. [/font]

teal · 19-04-2014, 11:46 AM

I can only ask my psych in july, that's the next appointment... My nurse told me it was mania, when she mentioned i had mania and I asked what it was. My psych, i've told her many times about this, and she doesn't say what it is, only cares about my meds doesn't talk about nothing else. But i'll mention