Lowest Weight

[ryan_25]

Im at my lowest weight in 7 years, and I cant even imagine when ill be able to eat something again without feeling like I've lost...
I know im going down a really dangerous path, but theres a huge part of me that loves the control I have and the results which are all too visable to everybody now...

[Unbreakable.]

What kind of support would you like from this thread?

I am asking because you seem to struggle a lot, but I can't think of anything to say to you but to tell you you need to eat, which you of course already know! So if you could explain what you would find helpful right now, it might make it easier for people to give you the support that you need. :)

[ryan_25]

I don't know what I want..
Its just this lifestyle has become so addictive
Sometimes I think Im losing grip

[LionCondemned]

Hey ryan,

i dont know if you have already answered this in previous threads so im sorry if you have, but have you got any access to professional support right now?
take care hun x

[marimar]

Hi Ryan, it looks like you're kind of enjoying this... i don't want to sound harsh but it sounds like you're proud that you lost weight... this is very dangerous and will cause you serious health problems, as you probably know. I'm more than willing to try and help you get on track if you'd like that so feel free to pm me. But if you just expect admiration here because you lost weight, this is not the right place for you to post. Again, I'm very sorry if i'm being harsh but you have to realize that further weight loss can be fatal and it is not a good thing.....

[Liar.]

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Originally Posted by marimar

Hi Ryan, it looks like you're kind of enjoying this... i don't want to sound harsh but it sounds like you're proud that you lost weight... this is very dangerous and will cause you serious health problems, as you probably know. I'm more than willing to try and help you get on track if you'd like that so feel free to pm me. But if you just expect admiration here because you lost weight, this is not the right place for you to post. Again, I'm very sorry if i'm being harsh but you have to realize that further weight loss can be fatal and it is not a good thing.....

Yup, that DOES sound harsh.
I dont think the OP is trying to brag, but more they dont know how to put across the pain they are going through and are struggling with it.
Maybe i am wrong, but maybe they just need to hear....
Its okay to be struggling, its okay to be confused. One thing at least is that you have noticed you are at your lowest weight and that some part of you likes it.
The OTHER part of you is the sense. That is the part you need to listen to, accept the help given to you and remember there are lots of things you surely still want to do in your life. The road you are currently taking wont get you there.

:)

[fragile as glass]

To me it does sound like you are proud of how much weight you've lost, but, on the other hand you've been brave enough to admit it on here.

I agree that there seems to be two conflicting parts of you. The part that wants to stay ill and lose more weight and the part that wants help but isn't sure how to ask for it. I would suggest you keep talking on here and try to make the more rational side of you come out with the support of other people.

[LilMissEmma]

Can anyone else honestly say they've never felt like they've achieved something through losing weight? I get a buzz when the number on the scales goes down, and the lower the number, the more empowered I feel. I hate what it does to my body, and even psychologically, but the feeling I get from knowing I weigh less than "them" or I'm a lower dress size than "them" is euphoric.
I think this is why I don't SH or OD when my ED is in full swing.
Are you in any treatment?

[LittleCloud]

Emma- thanks so much for saying that. I think many of us feel this, as unhealthy as it is and I think Ryan has put through that he feels both sides of this battle- the love of control, yet knowing how dangerous it is. Hope you're doing ok Ryan and think of you often