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What to do
I just don't know how I got here. A place where I can't seem to find the light anymore. A place where all I feel is the crushing lonliness and pain that has consumed my world. I have been cutting myself since I was in 8th grade, I was 12 and have done it off and on since then.
I am now a sophomore in college who has no clue how to handle her life anymore. I started off the year with new hope and the idea that my life was finally starting to get better. Then my mom died and since then everything else has started to fall apart in my life. I feel like I've lost myself and I don't know how to get back to where I was.
I've tried other ways to cope with my problems, like smoking, but I've found that you can only cover up the pain for so long, until it all just crashes down on you, drowning you.
I just want to believe again that good things still happen and that there's hope for a better life than this. I don't want to live alone with this weight on my heart forever, because if i do eventually the voices that tell me I'm not good enough are going to win out and I'm scared for that.
I just need somebody to talk to that understands what I'm going through and I don't have anybody like that.
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