I really need help from strangers

[ItRemainsUnseen]

I came upon this site looking for anonymous support. I am 27 years old and I cut myself. I had a horrible childhood and it leaks into my everyday life. I had children and got married when I was a teenager. I am still married to the man I married at age 15 but he doesn't understand me and honestly doesn't care anymore. And I can't blame him. Two years ago I got some really awesome care through a psychiatrist who prescribed me meds for my depression and anxiety but now I have no health insurance and can't afford to see a doctor (yes I realize I should have it now with obamawhatever but for me the fine is less than what I would pay but that isn't the issue). I have been off meds for a year now but not by choice and its getting harder. I cut more often. I can't stop and nobody cares. I have confided in like 3 people and they just don't care. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I do this for people to care or if I do it because I almost orgasm at watching that red stuff pour out of my skin like tears pour out of my eyes. I think I just need to know that I'm not alone in this world.

[FranticMind]

i dont have many words but i want you to know that you are not alone in this hun x

[littlemonster11]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. You definitely don't deserve it.

Take pleasure in your children. Hug them, be strong for them, let them know that you love them. Even if your husband seems distant and like he doesn't care, maybe you could try to talk to him about it?

It really sucks that people who can't afford care can't get it when they really need it..do you have any good friends or family members you could confide in?

Stay safe!
Allison

[ItRemainsUnseen]

Thanks guys for your support. FranticMind you didn't have many words but what you said meant a lot. It really did. Really. Little words mean a lot sometimes. The night I wrote this I cut my leg up really bad but a certain friend happened to text me in the middle of it and I stopped to talk to him. I didn't tell him what I was doing but he still stopped it. It's nice to know when we have friends when we most need it. Thank you Karma, you came to rescue for once.

[Amaryllis]

If you got health insurance, then you cold probably afford to see a doctor to get yourself back on medication. You said you were off of it but not by choice. Did the medication help? Would seeing someone professionally help?