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Feeling Betrayed
So I trusted a friend of mine with information about my self injury, about how I've been doing worse and that I just don't see myself getting better and in some ways I don't really care if I do, because I don't see much wrong with it. So she went and told another friend of mine, who she seems to think is my best friend... who really isn't. The friend she told, my "best friend," has basically told me that if I keep self injuring I will go to hell. She has this attitude that she is so much better than I am, that I am some lost soul who needs help to find God. Which first of all, I am a Christian, and I'm pretty sure that the Bible doesn't say that you're going to hell if you self injure, so it's kind of interesting that she thinks she is so much more of a true Christian than I am. But anyway - she decided that she wants to tell my parents about everything...unless of course I somehow prove to her that I am actively working on improving my self injury (which I am with counseling etc.). My point of view is that I shouldn't even have to prove to her ANYTHING. She does not own my life, and does not own the right to tell my parents. So I ended up calling my mom myself to tell her what's been going on (she already knows that I self injure anyway) just so she didn't have to hear it from someone else first. I just feel very betrayed, and that this whole situation was super unnecessary. I guess my lesson that I've learned here is not to trust people.
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