I screwed up

[BeautifulFreak24]

I had an appointment on the 19th with a new GP. She prescribed 10mg of Prozac to me after I told her I had taken Zoloft last year and had a bad reaction.
Well, I was looking for one of those pill sorters, and found the one that I had used before, which still had a couple of my pills (Prozac) in it. I realized I had mixed up Prozac and Zoloft, and that I had actually been taking Prozac when I had the bad reaction.
I panicked, and told my mom that I'm back on anti-depressants. She said since I've only been taking it for a couple of days, that it's okay that I stop immediately (she's an RN). She did tell me to call my GP on Monday, too. But she was really surprised and disappointed that I'm back on anti-depressants, so I don't see how I can tell her that I'm also cutting myself.

I thought it was hard when all I had to do was hide that I was cutting, but hiding the fact that I was taking medication made it worse. I'm not happy that I told her though, because I never wanted her to be disappointed.

[Snow White.]

Hi Angela,

I can really relate to this, my parents are not overly happy that I am on medication either. I think in many ways it's an unfortunate sign of not understanding. I've done a lot of research in this area and even when I explain the chemical basis of needing the medication my dad doesn't seem to listen; it can be very disheartening.

I guess for us there is more of an understanding about depression now than for older generations. Obviously, not all older generations don't understand the need for medication but there certainly is a great awareness now whereas in their days there were taught to just keep on going/pull your socks up etc.

I found it helpful to know that even though they seem disappointed, she is not disappointed in you; it's more likely she's just sad that someone she loves is hurting, which is tough for you but a natural response for a parent. Sher's likely disappointed for you. Have you tried speaking with her about how it made you feel?

I hope you're able to call the doctor and get the medications sorted x

[yoyogirl]

Can you tell the tablets apart from each, if u see your mum why don't u ask her to help you

[Serendipity.]

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this. I can relate as well, my parents have in the past been quite upset on finding out I've been taking medication. I agree with Snow White, though; she's your mum and it's quite likely that she's upset because she cares for you and wants you to be okay, not because you're doing anything wrong (you're not; it sounds like you're being really sensible in reaching our for help). Do you think you could try talking to her about it?

Did you manage to get in touch with your GP today?

Take care.

[Belt]

It's a shame mental illness has been so stigmatized that taking medicine that'll potentially make you feel better is looked upon as somekind of weakness. Would your parents or friends judge you if you took insulin if you had diabetes? I doubt it! I have taken high dosage anti-depressants for almost a year now and I wouldn't be able to function without them, that's not anything to scoff at or be ashamed of. I should be happy that I have doctors who're willing to listen and help me. I AM happy because thanks to that medicine I can actually manage to function MOST days. Even before then, when I was on less effective medication I was at least able to finish high school because of them. Be proud of yourself that you are brave enough to try something that could alleviate your mental illness! Your mum will come round when she sees the results, as most parents eventually do!

Love Robyn x

[BeautifulFreak24]

Thanks for the replies, sorry it took me so long to get back on here.
My mom did come around, and she seems okay with it.

As for my GP she took me off antidepressants completely, but wouldn't tell me why. So now I'm just going to counseling, which hasn't started yet.

[yoyogirl]

Can u ask her to go back on them