I'm sick of therapy

[Redsky]

I’ve begun to really hate my physiology appointments because it’s turned into family therapy and because the doctor prescribing my medication is an arrogant f*cking prick who completely screwed me over (I don’t want to go into more detail about that mess). But the problem is that I have no desire to be closer or more honest with my family right now. Also my physiologist has blamed my depression on me being a whiny teenager who needs more space and control and better communication with my family… yea that’s why I tried to kill myself twice… talking with my parents is like trying to swallow pins I know their scared after my last suicide attempt and I know they care about me but I don’t expect them to change they haven’t in the last 18 years and both my physiologist and the doctor are forgetting that I’m the one who has to live with the consequences of their choices if I take down barriers that I used to protect myself from my parents and they react badly which they probably will I’ve known them a lot longer than my physiologist has I don’t have anywhere to go I’m stuck because of this stupid disease I have (the meds are extremely expensive even with a healthcare plan) I just don’t know what to do because this is the first physiologist that I’ve gotten along with.


I'm sorry this is mostly just a rant but has anyone else just wanted to stop going to therapy?

[yuno44907]

:D Who is there? A fan of Minecraft. Living in beatiful Canada an 18 years old woman.
I was going to therapy. And i was taking medicine. After taking medicine i understood:: When you are happy, you are just happy! So i mean, you just need medicine. If you use them until one ends you will understand; medicines makes you happy no matter happens. So than you will understand; if you are happy, you are happy and if you are crying you are just not happy. Just be happy. Start planing your future. Think about; one day you will leave your family and you will be happy. Dont let your family to kill you. Dont die. Survive and fight for your freedom. I will not say i hate my family bcause it is against forum rules. Sometimes a good friend better than a bad family. I think somebody loves you. Find him or her. Have good time with him. Act like your family are not exist. Have some pets outside of your house. Maybe pigion or cat. They will catch you and follow you if you give them something tasty to eat but dont forget you must feed them everyday. But just give enought to keep them alive; they dont need to be fat and lazy. They must hunt for food.

I mean, err; you must fight against your family. Dont kill yourself bcause if you kill yourself somebody loves you will cry a lot of. Dont stop therapy; change your doctor or terorize your doctor. Write your letters against your family and doctor. Give them that letters and say "i will not talk; i will only write, bcause i hate you". Your family cant shape you. They cant lead you to suicide. They must have a good lesson. And i dont have a girl friend. Goodbye; i hope nothing goes wrong. If you need emergency help facebook.com/yuno44907 twitter.com/yuno44907

Dont kill yourself. I need you. Your family just didnt like your personality. So what? Everybody hates me since i am 13 and i am still alive. I really have 0 friend. I also hate humanity. Just understand, killing youself will not save anybody. Just try to change world by talking with other people. You will be very happy 10 years later, i promise; if you kill yourself right now you will be not exist in future. So if you want to be happy; just wait for 6 years. And dont let anyone disturb you even that person be your mother.

Live in future not today. Always dream about your future. Dont lose your hope. Always have plans for escape from your family and sadness. Never use drugs, alcohol, smoke. Use computer games, music, anime, manga.

[CupsofTea]

I want to stop therapy. After so many years with little improvement, going back and forth and back and forth, I'm just tired of it all. I don't really know what to say other than you're not alone...

Is there any way you can not have family therapy?

[Redsky]

Quote:

Originally Posted by CupsofTea

I want to stop therapy. After so many years with little improvement, going back and forth and back and forth, I'm just tired of it all. I don't really know what to say other than you're not alone...

Is there any way you can not have family therapy?

I wrote yesterday's post when I was pissed off so I was a lot harder on my parents than I meant to be I guess its not so much the family therapy that bugs me but that I feel like I'm not being taken seriously while things seem to get worse but yea I'll talk to my physiologist about doing less family therapy sessions.

but its still difficult to go do you think it would hurt to take a break from therapy for a bit?

[findingmyself]

Yeah I understand I hate family therapy refuse to do it. One threatened me with it she said you do once a month family therapy or im leaving you.
I have had so many therapist leave give up on me it hurts like hell. Therapist don't help just make me worse.

Yes I would take a break from therapy if that is what you want. Im in the US and I know some therapist do online therapy by chat like yahoo messenger and stuff. Maybe you could Google therapist in your area to see if they do online therapy. That way if its over the internet they cant really force family therapy and you cant get so attached. Hugsss.

[Steel Maiden]

Quote:

Originally Posted by yuno44907

:D Who is there? A fan of Minecraft. Living in beatiful Canada an 18 years old woman.
I was going to therapy. And i was taking medicine. After taking medicine i understood:: When you are happy, you are just happy! So i mean, you just need medicine. If you use them until one ends you will understand; medicines makes you happy no matter happens. So than you will understand; if you are happy, you are happy and if you are crying you are just not happy. Just be happy. Start planing your future. Think about; one day you will leave your family and you will be happy. Dont let your family to kill you. Dont die. Survive and fight for your freedom. I will not say i hate my family bcause it is against forum rules. Sometimes a good friend better than a bad family. I think somebody loves you. Find him or her. Have good time with him. Act like your family are not exist. Have some pets outside of your house. Maybe pigion or cat. They will catch you and follow you if you give them something tasty to eat but dont forget you must feed them everyday. But just give enought to keep them alive; they dont need to be fat and lazy. They must hunt for food.

I mean, err; you must fight against your family. Dont kill yourself bcause if you kill yourself somebody loves you will cry a lot of. Dont stop therapy; change your doctor or terorize your doctor. Write your letters against your family and doctor. Give them that letters and say "i will not talk; i will only write, bcause i hate you". Your family cant shape you. They cant lead you to suicide. They must have a good lesson. And i dont have a girl friend. Goodbye; i hope nothing goes wrong. If you need emergency help facebook.com/yuno44907 twitter.com/yuno44907

Dont kill yourself. I need you. Your family just didnt like your personality. So what? Everybody hates me since i am 13 and i am still alive. I really have 0 friend. I also hate humanity. Just understand, killing youself will not save anybody. Just try to change world by talking with other people. You will be very happy 10 years later, i promise; if you kill yourself right now you will be not exist in future. So if you want to be happy; just wait for 6 years. And dont let anyone disturb you even that person be your mother.

Live in future not today. Always dream about your future. Dont lose your hope. Always have plans for escape from your family and sadness. Never use drugs, alcohol, smoke. Use computer games, music, anime, manga.

Huh??!!