Confused and not sure where to start

[CstarL]

In January of 08 I was in a car wreck, that left me with short term memory. I have vague memory of my past before my wreck and what happens on a weekly basis. Having this problem with my memory makes it hard to heal. I lived a bad childhood, I am told, but, I have no memory of it. Because I have no memory of the past abuse, I do not know how to heal. I am not even sure I need to heal. The doctors that I had after my wreck in 2008 say I am physically fine. This wreck has locked away lots of things from my childhood that effect the way I think and act. Because these traumas and memory's are locked away they are effect me mentally but, I am not aware of how or why these traumas and memory's effect me and no knowing is making it hard to heal from them. I do not know what I have to heal from, I can not know how to heal if I do not know what to heal from. I am confused why so many people tell me I should go to therapy when I will not remember it. I do not know why people think that by medicating me that I will get "better". I am confused and do not know how to heal form something I have no memory of.

[Charmed]

Hi there,

This is such an incredibly difficult thing for you to deal with at the moment, I'm sorry you have been through so much. It must be very difficult not to remember what you have to recover from.

Although you feel as though you won't remember so therapy won't help, it may be helpful to think about therapy. You may not remember what happened to you, but they can help you deal with the prospect of not remembering and moving on from this. As well as this they may be able to suggest things to help you remember if you think this may help, for example many people have tried hypnotherapy which have helped them.

Have you talked to your friends and family about how you are feeling about everything?