Is this normal and/or safe?

CstarL · 03-07-2013, 03:26 AM

I think about suicide and or self harm multiple times a day. When I do not have anything else to occupy my mind these is were it goes. I can be reading a book or watching a movie but SH is still in the back of my mind reminding me they are in my mind.

I can not decide if they are dangerous to have or if they are safe. I am afraid that one day, something will happen that will bring up these thoughts in my mind and make them to long for me to resist. I do not think that the thoughts will ever become an addiction. I am not sure so I would like to ask others who suffer from SH if it really turns into an addiction or if a person can control the urges/thoughts?

When I first tried to SH I tried to cut. This form really did not give me what I was looking for. I have been thinking about burning myself. I have heard that this is a lot more painful then cutting and leaves worse scars. this might be what I try next. Thanks for you opinion

JessieRose · 03-07-2013, 05:00 AM

It happens to me too. I don't know if its safe or normal, but if it helps Im in the same boat. Sometimes if feels like anything you do is just a distraction. Sometimes its not enough. Just remember before you hurt yourself, its permanent. I know that might not help. But it helps me sometimes cause i know that if i cut I'll have the scars forever and they will just keep growing because of the way I scar. Maybe trying having someone to talk to, a friend maybe or a counselor? I know it might be scary but having someone who doesn't "know you" can help.

PassedExpectations · 03-07-2013, 11:32 PM

once you start harming, it often escalates. whether or not it is an addiction is debatable, depends on how you define addiction and individual patterns and tendencies, but it can become very hard to stop, with harming becoming more frequent and more damaging and permanent.

baggyjeans · 04-07-2013, 10:37 AM

I think of it as an addiction to be honest. X

lau_83 · 04-07-2013, 11:58 PM

Try to figure out why you want to do this in the first place and deal with that if you can. As PassedExpectations has said once you start it tends to esculate. Having done this for 12 years I would say yes it is addictive, but again it depends on the person and the reason of why they do this.

yoyogirl · 05-07-2013, 09:44 AM

Maybe to help you, you can avoid watching movies with triggering subjects

perola · 05-07-2013, 10:47 AM

I feel the same way. I don't know if it's normal or safe, but I think you should ask for help. Have you told anyone about this?
stay strong, and if you ever need to talk about it, feel free to pm me anytime :)