I came here to get help and advice for my problems and to escape from people who are close minded and impatient; the kind of people who have hurt me in the past.
The first day I come here, for myself after days of helping other people, I can't seem to get any help for myself.
PEOPLE ARE ALL THE SAME
when it comes down to it.
Heartless, inconsiderate, and hurtful
It would be much easier to slit my throat
then to live in this twisted world with all these monsters.
I keep giving all of my heart and soul to everyone only to have it taken selfishly, never getting anything in return for all my efforts, not even a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.
Seriously, a whole chat room can take the time to talk to a fucking law breaking bipolar stalker about the same delusions they have had on this website for YEARS regardless of the fact that they have not ONCE accepted ANY of your help; for over an hour and you cant take a COUPLE of minutes to talk to me?
INSTEAD, your more concerned about the way I am expressing myself instead of LISTENING and HELPING or even just BEING THERE for me.. Honestly, all that I witnessed today is people who are too fucking FULL of themselves to even ATTEMPT at helping ANYONE.
With all these RULES and restrictions on the way I am supposed to feel or speak, how the hell is anyone supposed to feel that they are not alone in this world and not want to KILL themselves.
I may have already been triggered before, but the people who SCREWED me over today have really PUSHED me off the edge.
Hi paper heat sounds like a pretty rough time for you and I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling supported and that you're finding chat difficult to get support in right now. I'm glad you came here to get some support for yourself because it sounds like you need it, and you need to support yourself now instead of supporting others first.
What is going on in your life at the moment?
Please keep talking with us, I hope you can stay safe x
I dont feel safe right now, All I want to do is hurt myself or take pills. All day was upsetting for me and I went into chat hoping to get it off my chest or get some
understanding, but before I could even finish what I wanted to say there were people down my throat being obnoxious and giving me an attitude or even trying to hurry me along before I could get a thought together. I have abusive parents and NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN, this was the very last thing I needed to happen right now.
I'm sorry you felt that the people in chat weren't very supportive. Sometimes you have to repeat yourself to get peoples' attention at times. I do take offence to the above comment though, as I do not believe myself to be any of what you described. To flame people you don't particularly know isn't exactly very helpful in this situation.
Any way... is there anything we can support you with here Paperheart? Again, I'm sorry about your bad experience in chat, if you wish to make a complaint about it you can always contact the mods.
I agree with Leah, I don't consider myself to be any of those things. Flaming the whole of chat for one bad experience is not a good way to make people want to help. Also guilt tripping everyone is low, un-needed, and against the rules.
I hope you feel better, and find whatever support you need.
Its not only one time though it is every single time I use the chatroom. Never ever get support from there.
you are always asking for support in chat, and you get it, its you who chooses to not listen to the support we give hun. dont badmouth the people in chat without even knowing us, we are clique, but thats because we know and care about each other.
I hope you can change your views on chat, you are seriously in the wrong.
Hi there,
Sorry you're feeling so awful. How are you feeling now? Hope you managed to stay safe.
I'm sorry you haven't found chat to be helpful. Sometimes people have their own things on their minds and may come in for general chat (depending on the room, obviously) or people may not be giving their full attention to chat as they're busy with real-life things.
It's also difficult to communicate how much a person is struggling / advice properly over something such as a chat room, so it can take a bit of getting used to and a lot of patience. But once you get to know people on here you will find that on the whole, most people are kind, compassionate and willing to help if they can. Flaming the people who are in chat makes it even less likely they'll want to help in the future.
the other thing you've got to remember is that you're new, and people don't know you yet. you can't expect people to not show more interest in their friends than in someone you don't know.
anyways, i know that i was on there and would have been happy to chat privately, and i really did see people trying to help you (if you're the person i remember, its possible that i'm remembering a different but similar username... i think you were asking about finding motivation to do things)... but then you left all of a sudden. there were other conversations going on at the same time, but that is entirely normal. we can often get three or four different supportive conversations running at once in the room 3 or 4.
what do you want us to do for you? is what you are expecting reasonable?
and how are you feeling this morning? i hope that you've gotten some sleep and been able to calm down. and that you've also gotten out of bed and done something, anything, today.
regardless, in some ways people are all the same... we are all imperfect. some to a greater degree than others. but i've been here a long time, and know that this community is pretty compassionate and helpful as a whole if you treat people right. but you can't expect the imperfections and frustrations of life in the real world to not exist here. we're still people. sometimes you've got to be patient. sometimes you've got to accept that others aren't in a mindset where they can help, or that they aren't around (if you're posting at midnight US time, there are going to be many less people around because a large number of users are in the UK) and nobody is a professional, so we don't always know what to say to help (although professionals don't always know either). i know that people come here expecting this perfect place, where its all cuddly and helpful all the time, and everyone makes friends, etc. but at the end of the day, all the things that impact the real world are still here too.
Last edited by PassedExpectations : 30-06-2013 at 06:03 PM.
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
Seriously, most of you who are here commenting about how much you don't agree on how your any of those things, were the people in the chat at the time, so please don't make it a point to come here and start trying to further the damage of the situation. THANKS
