I used to eat too much, I had bingeing crisis. Now I have trouble eating and keeping the food in. I purge nearly every time I eat sometimes.
I don't know what to do, I keep on throwing away food and buying it again. I keep on purging to loose weight (I'm currently seriously overweight and am trying to loose weight).
I have an appointment with a doctor specialized on ED on the 26 of june, which also scares me a lot. I don't know how / if they can help me. I'm afraid they'll think I'm just a fraud, pretending I have troubles that don't exist.
I don't know what to do.
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Thank you for your answer. I'm having a therapy but it's not very effective, my therapist not being specialized in ED. I'll see a doctor about that on the 26.
Today I bought food. I threw half of it away, because I don't want to eat. I know it's a stupid reaction, and a selfish one when you think of all the people starving, but I couldn't help myself. I don't know what to do, I'm always in the line between eating and not-eating.
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You need nutrients to live, so you need to eat. It's a question of what, when, and how. A doctor should be able to help you.
A therapist doesn't have to be an ED specialist [mine isn't specifically, and does a great job] to be able to really help. But they do need a grounding in understanding the emotional dynamics involved.
I understand that line [though my ED is restrictive primarily]. I also used to throw food away.
What healthy foods do you like? What foods can you keep down?
Sorry I didn't answer sooner, I didn't receive the notification.
Doctors don't help me with my ED, I tried seeing a nutritionist several times but it never worked out.
My current therapist can't do anything about my ED, she said it quite clearly, so I had to look for help elsewhere. I found an unit in Paris that is specialized in ED, they had a letter from my therapist and agreed to see me;
I like vegetables like tomatoes, zucchinis, asparagus, watermelon, and fruits like strawberries, peaches, but I don't have any imagination in cooking, which doesn't help. Plus I only have a microwave and no oven, so I'm fairly limited in being able to cook something.
I have trouble keeping any food, I despair when I don't manage to purge.
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I'm sorry I don't have any advice on this matter, but I just wanted to say I can hear how much you're struggling now and it sounds so difficult for you, so I wish you all the very best for your appointment on the 26th. Let us know how it goes x
Thanks Snow White!
The therapist I saw said she wouldn't help me because I'm followed by another therapist and assumed it was her job to deal with it. I already talked about it with my therapist, she won't help and neither will the team that follows me. I was given the address of an association on ED, I already have an appointment for the 22 of july.
I hope it won't be another door slammed in my face, it's been ten years and it's starting to really tire me.
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