on deaths door!!!

[torrox316]

hey i really need some help i havent a clue how to live or what to do!!!

i met my ex partner wen i was 19 thing were great and we had a child called nicole. after that things grew sour and paul became abusive physically and mentally. it wasnt all the time but gradually got worse slowly over the years. last year in may i had the strength to leave him and he stalked me every way you could think of. i gave in with his constant txts and phones calls and we got back together.

over the next five months from september to the december he had been religiously putting me down and it became so bad i had to send my little girl to spain to live with my mam because his drug and drug taking became so bad. when he would be high off coke and Mkat he would flip and beat me so hard bones had been broken and bruises were left.

he was so manipultating to our mutual friends that he convinced them all i had done this to myself. things got even worse from there and he would drag me upstairs with everyone in the house and rape me upstairs if i didnt go then when everyone would leave he would hit me again and do worse.

By january my mum had to come home from spain and take care of me. when the doctors saw me they said if i stayed there any longer by Feb i would be dead. i went and lived at my aunties getting counciling and help from other people. Paul began to play games and it turned out since the september he had been in a realtionship with a 16yr old girl who has no turned 17 (paul and i are 25) i moved to spain toget away from his violence and metal abuse and now i find out that hes trying to take my child off me. he puts vile facebook statuses up and i still cant get rid of him.

everything had been noted with the police ie. violence, stalking and even the rape but they keep saying i dont have enough evidence.........i guess what im saying is i dont understand how someone can do all these evil things to someone and get away with it?! is it so wrong to want justice? all i no is im close to leaving this world because of this...... SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME xXXXX

[Wonderland.]

I don't have the words right now, but I just want you to know that I care.

[Snow White.]

I can't believe they are saying you don't have enough evidence, that is awful and I am so sorry to hear this. However I urge you to please keep fighting and keep holding on, even if only for little Nicole. She needs you to be here, or else she will have to go with her father. At least now you have a chance to plead your case, you deserve to be safe and I am glad you have moved away from your abusive ex.

If you still see him on facebook I suggest you screenshot and log the time of what he says as if he wants to get custody that will be evidence at least of a little bit of things. But if it is too upsetting you might want to consider putting him on ignore.

Are you getting any professional support at the moment for how you're feeling?


Please, keep holding on x