Bruising and broken bones

[imperia]

I`m curious , Does any one do this ? , I`m an adult that been bruising for the past 15 years and even broke bones from doing this so much . I know I`m not alone but feel that way . I`m going through a bad time with the SH and whats scary is I`m not satisfied unless I take it to extremes and break something again , Please help .

[Wonderland.]

I'm sorry that you are feeling so alone in this.

Are you getting any support at all for the self harm?

[Slip]

Hey - I've never broken a bone - although I often (I mean really often wish I could) but bruising - all the time. You are NOT alone xx

[imperia]

Thanks for your replys, I been in therapy for 2 years until my insurance ended 2 monthes ago so I tryed to get by without it and I`m getting worse . I have a new job and wont get insurance for another month . It sucks when all I think about is how I can feel more pain . Anyone feel addicted to bruising ? It really consumes my thougths .

[lau_83]

I bruise, but not that often, and I've broken a bones in my hand after hitting a wall. Wish I hadnt because it sitll hurts all the time.

[imperia]

Yea breaking bones is very painful so dont do it , I struggle with urges to do this al the time , So I really hope I can figure out a reason why ??

[imperia]

Still alone I see ,Well I`m still the same and will get help soon , If anyone cares ???? I `m a fu%^kin alien and have five heads !!

[nightshadesk8r]

You're not alone in this dear, I started to do the same thing when I worked in food service & would lose my job if I came in in an unsanitary fashion. Think of it this way - there are plenty of drug addicts. Whether they choose pills, coke, whatever they're still addicts. I doubt any one could tell you why they picked their drug of choice, the same way I can't tell you why some of us break & bruise as opposed to other things. I hope you get help that works for you - and you have a 5-headed alien counterpart if you ever need to talk

[imperia]

Thank you for your reply , Its hard when people dont understand what this is like . My wife just thinks this is something that will just go away like a cold . and she doesnt have a clue. Writing is one way I distract from SH I just got laid off from my day job , last thing I need is more time to be consumed by my demons. I will def stay in touch .more later ..

[((deleted))]

I don't want to read and run, but equally don't especially feel like I have anything useful to offer you...so *hugs* and take care x

[imperia]

Thank you ((hugs)) too you

[talaiporia]

It might be worth writing your own list of distractions, things to do, when you feel the need to self harm. RYL has it's own Big Distraction Page, but many are aimed at younger members so it might be better to personalise it.

How are you doing at the moment?

[imperia]

I do alot of things to distract and that works only sometimes , I can be very busy with something one minute and then the next I give in to it Im so consumed by this addiction ..... Today I was able to keep busy until I took a break then I got sucked in again . Stay safe all

[pea soup]

I understand you completely. I've been bruising for years and purposely broke my ankle and my arm. I certainly don't recommend it. I have arthritis in my arm and ankle. Hurts all the time.

You definitely aren't alone.

I don't have any advice..not in a good place. I'm sorry.

Much love to you.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[imperia]

Gets more challenging each day , and I`m consumed once again Help !! :(

[pea soup]

Read your signature! It's so important and inspiring. You can get through this hard time.

[imperia]

Thank you , Pea soup , Yes my sighature is up there for all of you Yes We will beat this thing !

[imperia]

Well I`m back to hell again , I was ok for a few days and now I`m out of control . I dont understand were in comes from , But now I`m bruised cant walk . someone please help I dont know how much more of this I can take ....

[imperia]

Hi, Finally going to a doctor today . To get myself in a better place Will see what the doc thinks of all this ........

[Celticroots]

I do this. Bruising has replaced cutting as my main form of self-harm. You mentioned that it consumes your thoughts and that it is addicting. I find the same thing happens to me when I am in a bad place. You're not alone.