To prove to people that it's not possible for me to die. I've tried to kill myself on so many occasions and I haven't died, even when doctors have told my family I wouldn't last the night.
I know I can do this and I want to do this to prove I'm indestructible.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
I don't think I am but IF I was I'd be willing to take that chance because chances are nobody would care if I were dead anyway.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Humans are not immortal. You are a human. Thus you are not immortal. Also I think people would care a lot if you died.
Last edited by Steel Maiden : 17-03-2013 at 08:18 PM.
Reason: additional.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
'When you love someone and it goes to waste
Could it be worse?'
Taken from your own signature. You have family. They love you. Killing yourself will inflict so much pain on them and it will go down the generations like a curse.
Ring the Samaritans.
Niles: I really must go. I'm hosting a seminar on multiple personality disorders and it takes me forever to fill out the name tags.
Please don't do it you are not indestructable i would urge you speak to your pysch teamand see what they suggest. You are only human
Just think of people you will leave behind, if not reverse the situation say if you did jump of a high a building how would your parents and family feel from you jumping. whats going on your life right that makes you want to do this to yourself.
please speak to crisis team now!
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Why do you want to prove it?
Many people have told me I'm not indestructible and I know I am.
But what's the point in trying to prove it?
The time will come when it is proven when you are still alive and they aren't.
Not worth the aggro you'll get from psych
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Is it that you really want their care, concern and protection?
If so, that's ok, but you can use your voice to express these needs, not dangerous and potentially fatal actions.
Stellata has point it's best if you open to them and express how you feeel rather than action how you feel if you get what i am saying.
Okay it may mean a possible stay in hospital for a few days but this for your protection, use it as way of getting better like it's gold dust and grab it while you can
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Why do you want to prove it?
Many people have told me I'm not indestructible and I know I am.
But what's the point in trying to prove it?
The time will come when it is proven when you are still alive and they aren't.
Just remmeber if you do end up in it's for your protection to keep you safe from harm. hugs to you x
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
I've found the spiral staircase outside the hospital which leads to the roof. I'm finding it so difficult to not go up it.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
there's no point in trying to prove that you're invincible.
If you survive, they will just tell you you're lucky and refuse to believe you're invincible (they always do) and if you don't then you'll just prove everyone right.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
