How to get the crisis team to understand? *trigger*

[Daydream]

The crisis team have been seeing me since I came out of hospital last Monday. Since Friday my moods have lowered significantly to the point where I am at risk of harming myself again. I tried to tell them this today and they have the broken record "distract yourself".

I was hospitalised the first time because the crisis team discharged me and my parents ended up taking my down to A&E where they spoke to me for about 5 minutes before admitting me (I think I was in the middle of mixed mania then, don't currently have a known dx). I ended up back in after being home for the weekend because I was saying the same thing that I said today but they actually listened to me then.

I warned them before that I was at risk on harming myself and I ended up having to have an ambulance called by them because I had OD'd the next day. I know my capabilities and they scare me. I have always been a "severe" self harmer but I've managed not to seriously hurt myself regularly for the last 6 years. Now I'm in crisis again and they don't understand. I'm too scared to say outright that I need to be admitted in case they say no. If they say no it will make my life a lot more difficult. I know that becoming used to hospital is in no way an option, but being there stopped me killing myself before.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I know myself well enough that I know I need to be in hospital at this point so that I don't kill myself but they won't even bring it up. My mother agreed with me when I saw her earlier today and was convinced they were going to admit me but when they didn't she didn't know what the do or say. Distracting myself isn't an option at the moment because my head is consumed with suicide and thoughts of seriously harming myself.

Does anyone have any advice? Am I just being daft?

Apz x

[random.swirls]

Could your mother be with you the next time you see the crisis team?

Alternatively what about printing the above out and handing it to them - it's very clear and they can't just ignore it if that makes sense?

[talaiporia]

Part of the reason they sound like a broken record is because their advice probably does help most of the time; so it makes sense to keep giving it. That said, it does really sound like they're not acknowledging the danger to yourself at the moment, or the level of crisis. I agree with Cam that getting your parents to help you fight your corner is a good plan. The other option is just to keep going back to A&E.

What support do you have right now?

[_wendy_]

i think its down to lack of funding, beds etc. ive been in a crisis now for a few weeks. tried to hang myself couple weeks ago, police cut me down just in time. had a 136, had an assessment, but they let me go again. crisis team were at assessment and said they would come and see me if want over the following week. i havent seen them.
so, i dont think its necessarily you, just there is only so much they can do with limited staff, funds etc.

[sherlock holmes]

I know how frustrating the crisis team can be when they just keep telling you to distract yourself.

If you think that you are in serious danger then ring 999 or get down to A&E.

[Daydream]

Sorry I haven't replied, too much going on in my head.
My sister took me down to A&E at midnight and I was admitted at 3am this morning. I'm being discharged tomorrow but I feel a bit safer and better in myself at the moment. They've lined up a new medication, DBT and the crisis team have been to see me and are trying a new approach because they've realised (or been told) that going on like a broken record doesn't help me at all.

I'm happier now knowing that I've been heard which isn't the case for a lot of people. I'm feeling safer now and I'm still alive which was the whole point.
April x

[Patent Pending]

I'm glad you were able to get some extra support and that Crisis have listened to you :)

Well done!

x x x