i take too many

[livingwithshadows]

Hi.
I take cocodamol. One of the strongest painkillers there is. I have only taken x tonight but that's my first lot in 6 month so k guess u could call it a relapse... Truth is i love it but i love my gf more so trying to stop. I recently tried to kill myself with them but didn't work because i was sick three times. It makes me feel warm and happy but i hate myself because of it and i really don't know what to do.

[talaiporia]

Hey there,
I'm sorry you've been struggling with this recently. Yes, there are positive effects of these drugs, but there's negative effects too, and notably in this case, I'd be concerned about the amount of paracetamol you were also ingesting.

Have you ever sought help for this from a doctor? It might help to talk about it, and about your suicidal thoughts. What do you think is making you feel like this at the moment?

[Wonderland.]

How are you doing now?
Well done for being free for 6 months that is awesome and something you should be proud of. Try not to beat yourself up about slipping up. Do you know what triggered you to take them again? Knowing what your triggers are can be key to recovering.

Take care.
Amy x