I think you need to hang in there and realise that external events in youre life, like your break up and your family, do not have a bearing on your level of happiness, and that rather, it is your relationship with these that does. It is the way you view them and the way you react accordingly. What is frustrating you, and making you feel lonely is not those around you, but it is your own mind telling you you should feel that way. Negative events and situations do not last forever, and likewise, neither do negative reactions and feelings. This is why we shouldnt hold on to our feelings of negativity, because by the time we get to feeling upset about things, it is too late to change things anyways, so all that you can do is to let go and to keep on keeping on.
We are so quick to come up with reasons to give up in this life, and thats because these are the things that are staring us right in the face. But what we need to do is take a breather and think what are some reasons to hang on? Its not a question of whats left to live for, its a question of what isnt. The only way you can ensure that things are ever right again with your family is to stick things through to the end. The only way to honour the relationship you had, is to move on with things and to appreciate the good times while they lasted. Life isnt about creating permanent happiness because permanent happiness is a myth. Its about striving to be happy with where we are right now and what is going on in our lives. I am not going to deny that it is hard, but the work you put in now reaps rewards that are tenfold later on.
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