Therapy

Phells · 20-02-2013, 05:08 AM

I'm sorry, I feel like I'm posting a lot. But, so, okay, say I have schizophrenia like the psychiatrist and the therapist suggested, what will therapy be like? What will it do? What will it change? I just have so much trouble picturing anything but how I'm living now. I'm trying to not focus on the label, and focus on getting better but I don't get what better would be like.
And how are you suppose to talk about the things you experience like you don't believe them all the time? It's so hard because I know everyone thinks they aren't real, but they are to me. But when I talk to people I feel like I have to pretend I don't believe them so that they understand. But they don't anyway.
Everyone wants me to talk and act like I know the things that go on are wrong and false. But really it's more like they just can't see what I can. Everybody wants me to talk about it, like there is some easy fix, like by talking about it I'll go "Oh, you're right, I was just being silly" but they don't want to hear about it. They don't understand. Sorry if it got a bit rantish. Its just that my close friend says I'm not really completely like... touching the earth right now. She thinks I should talk to someone, but I feel in touch with reality, like she just doesn't see what I see. How am I suppose to deny my truth to tell people?

Also, this may be a stupid question, but would a psychiatrist ever say they're giving you a certain drug and then give you a placebo? I'm trying to trust in her, but I only met her for an hour and I don't trust pills in general. I think she might've to see if I'm full of crap or not. They don't do anything except torture my stomach, but right now I'm on a low dose. (2mg until Friday, then 5 for a week and then 10)...

Anyway, thanks in advance for any replies... and for reading.

Pi.R^2 · 20-02-2013, 10:54 AM

No. Unless you're taking part in a drugs trial (and you would know about it if you were), it would be completely unethical for a doctor to give you a placebo. Can I ask what medication you're on?

I'd really not recommend trying to say what you thing your therapist wants to hear. You don't have to pretend you know the things you experience aren't real if you don't. It's their job to take you from being 100% convinced by the things you experience, to having a bit of doubt and the ability to questions things, but they can't do that if you're not honest with them.

Therapy is definitely worth a try, even though now it feels like it would be pointless and frustrating. For now you have to just have faith that there might be a different truth to the one you see now. Faith is taking the first step even when you can't see the whole staircase. And you can always take a few steps and then decide this staircase isn't for you and run back down, but you won't know until you try.

Phells · 20-02-2013, 07:38 PM

Thanks, I figured it'd be something like that but I wanted to make sure. I'm on Abilify/Aripiprazole.

I just feel like they won't get it, and even if I talk about it truly they still won't believe. It feels like just the fact that I bring it up discredits my reality. I'm having trouble swallowing the "you can't trust your reality" thing that everyone keeps presenting me with.

I'm trying to have faith that it will help but I feel like there is nothing that can be done. Does anyone have any examples of how it's helped them with similar situations? Only if you feel like sharing, and you can pm me if you don't want to type it on the thread.

talaiporia · 22-02-2013, 04:57 AM

Hey. I don't have much advice, but I just wanted to wish you luck and say, honesty really is the best policy here. They can only work with what you tell them, so you do need to tell them. They'll have heard it all before, they will 'get it', they will understand.