im freeee {:

[findingmyself]

IM FREEE YAYAYYAYAYAY Talked to my new psych he says I dont have bipolor I TOLD YOU ALL I DONT told you I was right. I was telling all my therpaist and psych im not bipolor no one would believe me kept putting me on meds for something i dont have. FINALLY SOME ONE BELIEVE ME THAT IM NOT BIPOLOR. FINALY I HAVE SOME ONE ON MY SIDE. I told my therapist I saidd hahaha told you I was right my psych said Im not bipolor. Since Im not bipolor I only have to take the shot one more time and after that im going to go on the pill only when neeeded {: He said I only have depression and anxiety.

I would love to see the face on my psych that I used to have she would flip out if If I told her my new psych said im not bipolor and how i m only taking meds when needed lol would love to see her face maybe I should tell her so I can tell her I told you so Im nto bipolor I would jsut sit there smiling while shes mad lol.

Im finally freee{:

[talaiporia]

That's good news honey. Have they sorted out a diagnosis for you now?

[findingmyself]

thanks yup he said he thinks I only have depresison and anxiety. Also I have borderline but he didnt say that bec I didnt bring it up but its most likely true. So borderline depression and anxiety. Thanks {:

[talaiporia]

Has he said what help you're getting for BPD, anxiety and depression?

[Pops.]

I'm glad that you don't have bipolar and that you're happy with how the appointment went. Hopefully you will be getting some proper support to help you cope with everything else. Good luck xxx

[Fire Fly]

Im glad that you are happy. Like mentioned above, has he said anything that might help with treatment for your bordeline anxiety and depression?

[Pappi]

i'm glad your happy about your diagnosis, it's a good thing to not have bipolar.

DO you think the depression and anxiety could be related to the BPD? I think sometimes they come as part of the parcel. xx

[findingmyself]

Yes its a huge relief after fighting and fighting for some one to believe me that im not bipolor I seriously thought I never would be heard. It is a huge weight off my shoulders getting this news and I cry as a realse that some one actually finaly believes me that im not bipolr. I jsut hope he doesnt change his mind. I can honestly tell you guys if you feel in your gut you dont have something dont give up keeep telling others you dont have it and dont STOP UNTIL SOME ONE LISTENS TO YOU. Its hard to fight especialy on your own i know because I have done it for a long time and I suffered so much pain and hurt from no one listening to me that im not bipolor and no one believing me. But I kept fighting and told them I will not stop until some one hears me. I just hope this is for real and he doesnt change his mind and I jsut hope if he talks to my therapsit he doesnt change his mind bec i know my therpasit will tell him im bipolor I jsut hope he sticks with im not and not believe her.

I will be taking the risperdol one more time by shot after that Im going to go on the pill only when needed {: I told him how I like to go on and off it when I feel better or worse and if I feel good off of it I stay off and if i feel bad again I take it again. So he said I can start taking the pill only when needed {: He said he does see some mood changes but not bipolor he said meds just help in his words put the brakes on things like yelling at people mostly through email so I guess thats why he suggested i only take med when needed when I feel I need the brakes. FINALY SOME ONE HEARS ME IT FEELS SOO GOOD TO BE HEARD AND TREATED LIKE A ADULT FOR ONCE. {:

Im doing dbt with a therpaist so thats supposed to help with the depression anxiety and borderline. Thanks all {:

Yup its realted to bordelrine most likely and the mood changes it s just borderline not bipolor or normal moods.

Im so happy feel like dancingggg {: that this weight is off my shoulder and I can stop being called manic when Im happy which is so anoyying . IM HAPPPYYY ITS OFFICAL NOT MANIC {:

[Pops.]

Good luck with the DBT :)

[findingmyself]

Not going so good but im taking it one day at a time

[Indigo.]

I'm glad to hear that! x
I hope you get the help you need for BPD & depression & anxiety. It's good that your new psych understands you. I hope that he can help you change your opinion that all psychs are bad & that this is going to be a good experience. Good luck! x

[offlineforever]

That is what I am diagnosed with Lauri, I hope you get the treatment you both deserve and need!

[findingmyself]

Thanks all. Im begining to think maybe I should just stay on the shot that I get once a month. Im not sure yet this may seem weird but I feel like risperdal is making me smart I dont know if thats possible for this med to make you smart but I feel Im remembering things a lot better including math feel like im remembering more than I ever have in the past. Maybe Ill jsut go off the shot for a month and see what happens if I feel worse then go back on the shot or try tkaing the pill only when needed not sure yet bec I keep changing my mind.

lucky lucy sometimes they use antipsychotics to stabilize moods thats why im on a antipsychotic to stabilize moods Im not bipolor though he said.