giving up

[underthesleeves]

I pretty much feel like I should just give up on trying to be happy or live a normal life. Every time I start to think I'm happy, something happens to ruin it. I'd rather die than live like this forever. It sucks. Everyday is the same. I'm always depressed and everyone thinks I suck because I'm always so depressed. I hate it and I think I suck too. I just want to be happy and normal. I don't always want to have a frown on my face. But I know nothings ever going to change. Ever. So whats the point then? There is none as far as I'm concerned.

[HopeRises]

Things change all the time and with some help and support I think that your mood can change too.
It is hard when you feel so low and heavy hearted and scary too.
I find it really hard to approach my friends too. I have lost a lot of friends due to depression but if they are your real friends they won't think you suck.

Do you feel able to talk go anyone about how your feeling?

[Buttons.]

When we are low in mood and struggling it can feel like these things are never ending, but in reality it is highly likely there will come a time when things are better and your mood is brighter, it's just damn hard trying to fight your way towards that. Has anything in particular made you feel like this?

[makedamnsure]

Hey, I've been where you are and it's not nice.

I do believe that things CAN change, life will not ever be perfect, and bad things are likely to happen, but they don't have to always drag us down with them.

Do you have any professional support?

[crazylove]

don't give up
just think;i'm a total stranger but i'd be distraught if you'd go and do something serious like that
'the only way out is through'
by this i mean that you have to go through what your going through to get out of the situation
killing yourself and fleeing from it is not the option
life is a beautiful thing
you'll get your chance to live it
just be patient and keep staying strong
i promise things will get better

oh and listen to demi lovato

[underthesleeves]

Thanks everyone. No, I don't really have anyone I talk to or any professional support. It's not that I'm just in a bad mood and I'm saying this. It's how I've felt everyday from the second I wake up until I go to sleep for the past 4 years.

[lilmissjay]

Did something happen 4 years ago to trigger these emotions? Perhaps once you figure out what may be causing this, it might be a bit easier to find ways to make things a little better. Also, would you ever be willing to talk to a professional?

[underthesleeves]

My best friend died. Because of me. And I have had a therapist in the past, but it wasnt very helpful