Risperdal

[findingmyself]

I was in in patient for a week }: Got out today well really yesterday sense its 2 in the morning now but you know what I mean. Im in the US.

Im 20 years old and this is abuse and controlling and I have no way to get away from it because I have no money yet to move out and live on my own. Im being forced and controlled to take meds and see a therapist }: I got suspended from college a year ago for yelling at a teacher by email. IM allowed back this january but need a letter from a therapist or psych saying I am okay to go back my psych and therapist wouldnt give me the letter }: They pretty much said take meds and where give you the letter if you dont then they wont give me the letter. Abuse and controlling. Im being forced to take meds bec if I dont I wont get the letter. So yeah I went to in patient and got the letter from the psych I saw there. He said the same thing take this med and Ill give you the letter if not he wouldnt }:

Some weird things that happened was my psych the one I see outside the hospital (shes indian by the way not being racist) she s the person that suggest my mom put me in to inpatient to get on meds. Which I was off mine and felt fine and dont want to be on meds. Shes was kinda being very forceful and controlling me. she showed a side of her I have never seen which was scary. All I did was not take my meds Im not violent nothing. She was acting like I was so out of control which I WAS NOT thats the honest truth. She told my mom how long are you going to take this until you put her in the hospital she meant by that because me and my mom argue. Also saying she wants to shoot me up with haldol by needle. Mind you Im not scizo and she know that I have bipolor and borderline. That was the first shocking thing she was acting like I am out of control which I was not.

So we go to the hospital and we find out that there was no way in hell I should get on haldol she was like why would your psych prescribe that when your not scizo thats too hard of a drug for me. Im glad we found that out before I took that. So I go to in patient and and take seroquel at night and try risperdal which I have never been on before during the day it made me tired so I stoped taking that for like a day or two there. My psych talks to my psych at the hospital and tells him she wants to shoot me up with abilify even after I told her I dont like that med. She was like I want to shoot her up with abilify after shes out of the hospital bec I wont be complitant with my meds she knows so she wants to do the injection that way it forces me to be compliant and take it. Then the psych at the hospital tells her that Im not seeing her any more that Im going to see him instead. Shes gets all possessive of me and ask him where hes located.

When hearing this information Im like omg this lady is fukin crazy why did I see this psych. I dont even know what word to call her for what shes doing and acting like. I say drug pusher but I think its more than just that. Its like being possevive of me and being obsessed about me for some reason wanting me to be her patient wanting to shoot me up with meds so bad and wanting me to be on meds so bad and wanting me hospitalized.

So when I left the psych at the hospital said sense I dont like abilify he wouldnt put me on it. He decided to shoot me with risperdol instead he said it wouldnt make me tired when given by needle.

Im glad Im getting away from my old psych she is crazy I think you guys will find this scary what she said and shocking just like I did. She doesnt sound like a complete drug pusher it sounds like something else too not sure maybe being obsessed with me or being possesvie or something. When she doesnt own me shes acting like she does its like bitch you dont own me. I have never seen this side of her before kinda scary shes saying all this stuff in a very forceful way as you can tell by what she said not a caring way at all. Its like why do you want me on meds so bad and want me to be your patient still so bad I dont understand shes acting like Im out of control when Im not.

I got shot in the butt with risperdal not fun }: and the pain from the shot has lasted all day hurts to walk not fun I hate needles. Supposed to get the shot once a month. They think lets shoot her with meds so that way shes forced to be complitent . The med has to be taken to the doc office and then they give it to you by shot. There stupid think that will make me complitent I can just not show up at the doc appointment when its time to give me it again.

No one listens to me being forced and controlled to take meds and see a therapsit when Im 20 years old cant escape bec I dont have money yet to. }:

It really brings my self esteem down and feels degrading that im being shot with risperdal by needle. Im being controlled and forced and its not right its abuse im 20 }: Its degrading being forced to be shot by a needle with this med makes me feel like less of a person }:

I cant wait until I am free have enough money to live on my own so I can run as fast as I can away from therapsit and meds. I wish some one would save me }:

[CaiteeBug]

The only person who can save you, is you.

[Fire Fly]

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Originally Posted by CaiteeBug

The only person who can save you, is you.

^^ this! If so many people want you on meds maybe you need to be on them?
If they are giving you a letter to go back to college if you take medication taht might probably work(so many psychs have told you this) then why not give it a shot?

[not_so_insig]

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Originally Posted by Lauri Lauri

I got shot in the butt with risperdal not fun }: and the pain from the shot has lasted all day hurts to walk not fun I hate needles.

I am on an injection too and trust me when I say it hurts less the more you have it. I used to be sore for days, whereas because my body has got used to it I have very little pain (just some the next day and that's it). The more you put it off the less chance your body will get used to it and the more it will hurt. Also they will force you if necessary to take it, so it's best that you at least show up for your appointments rather than them chasing you.

Also I hate needles too (I nearly fainted the first time I had it! I also had to lie down for 40 mins because I got so anxious I felt so dizzy and unstable on my feet), but again the more you have them the more you get used to it. Trust me 6 months later you wont be phased by them and you will see as nothing but a waste of 5 mins! You're actually lucky having it once a month, I have mine every 2 weeks.

If they see that you are compliant with taking the injection (that means turning up to every appointment) then you can discuss having Risperidal (or any other antipsychotic) as tablets after a while. Injections are usually reserved (though not in all cases) for people who arent compliant with meds. The more you refuse meds the more the case you will need injections.

Also meds arent an admission of failure, if that's what you're thinking. Plenty of people here need meds in order to survive and live a normal life. You wouldnt tell a diabetic to stop taking insulin, so why should mh problems to be any different?

[frenchhorn]

I agree with the others, if so many professionals are telling you to take meds then maybe you should take them, they could really help you.

Have you read through ur last posts u were out of control im glad they snt u inpatient the psychs jus want u better n this seems likete only way

[findingmyself]

I didnt want to go to in patient I dont think I was out of control. They made me go to get back on meds }: which i dont want I feel better off of meds but no one cares that I feel better off meds being controlled }: when im 20 sobb


insignificant_one honestly I know if I go back on the meds you take by mouth Ill just stop them. The shot is kinda good bec its once a month so its not a constant remidner im taking meds bec you dont get the shot every day.

I cant save my self right now because I dont have money to get out of this house yet.

U were out of control n maybe once the shot has gt bk into ur system u willsee tht cus u were damn right nasty sometimes and tht ius not how a stable and contented person acts. Yes u r 20 but I'm 24 n if I come off my meds n act like u were doing on here let alone in real life I'm not surprised tbh cus u r unwell

[offlineforever]

If you were in control like you say, why were you inpatient for a week? They are trying to help you and you are fighting them every step of the way, you seriously are lucky you can get some level of support, when so many people on here and around the world have access to little or no support.

Also, you are lucky that you can take meds for your MH, I have a medical condition that prevents me from taking a lot of medications, especiall AD's. When I struggle with my MH I would do anything to be allowed to take meds.

Can I ask why you are fighting them so much, if you want to go back to uni so much, wouldn't it be better to be compliant than to ignore them.

i hope you do realise that all the meds that you are being perscribed are used for psychosis aswell as other conditions

[findingmyself]

Im taking the med risperdal because they think I have bipolor.

[findingmyself]

because I truley believe these are just normal moods Im not bipolor. I feel bad for being treated for bipolor when I dont have it and I feel bad because people are really struggling from it. Yes I was in there for a week saterday to friday. To get on some meds. I got the letter to go back to college so its all good and takeing risperdol by shot every month.

what course are you doing at college... u obv do have it if several psychs have said u have..

[findingmyself]

Well im in my basics associates right now. I want to be a therapist that is my passion. I want to be over with my associates so bad so I can start with working towards my degree as a therapist {: I take some psychology courses.

i think u need to take a hard look at urself and how u talk to people because if you speak to your service users like you have spoken to us you wont be employed... also u need to be stable for a period of time..

like i said take a hard look at yourrself and what you want to be and see where the differences lie.. and that statement comes from a DBT therapist about myself and becoming a teacher i certainly wouldnt be coming to you at this current time with how you act towards people

[findingmyself]

Thanks. I know im a carring compassionte person I truley care about other. Im a people please and hate conflict and hate drama. Every one gets mad and angry sometimes where humans no one is perfect. You guys where hurting me and thats why I reacted that way not saying it was right I was just crying out for help thats all I was not being that mean.

yeh but there is caring and being good at a job professional care theres a difference and u have stated u dont know the difference several times... life has conflict and drama noone likes it but u deal with it.. there is a way of expressing anger that wasnt like you did it... we WERE NOT hurting u we were stating wat everyone else was stating and u may find u were the one who got banned for several days.... u were being mean crying out for help is completely different u ddint accept the help we offered u so how is that crying out for help what cpuld we have done for you

[Shenanigans]

Could this please be done over PMs? It seems several threads are targeting one problem/argument and it's unnecessary.

She needs to think realistically and think of the bigger picture... Its better than her and when she is well she will prob be a good therapist but for everyone that will want to do there dream job so that means taking meds and working with servvices

[offlineforever]

Lauri, they obviously think something isn't right MH wise if you were inpatient and have been given meds. They are the trained professionals not you.

That said, I hope being back at college helps you in the long term.