Ok, so I'm under CMHT for probable PTSD and the mental health nurse has said I also have a possible mood disorder/Personality disorder (I don't know my mental health nurse is a bit of a pain in regards to informing me about pretty much anything other than her holiday to america for Christmas and my ability to beat myself up better than anyone the longest topic of convo has been about my daughter.)
She is still on holiday and I am struggling.
This is the worst of the frames of mind. I can cope with being depressed (seeing as it doesn't last more than 6 months), I can cope with being hyper as long as I don't do anything too stupid. But this irritable, crabby, very little consentration, too much going on in my head, restlessness and oh I can't think of the right words right now is getting on my last nerve.
The worst part is my daughter is still on school holiday and doesn't go back til Monday and now I'm all irritable and snappy. I keep trying to do things but can't get into them and then she plays up and I snap at her (vocally). It's not her fault she is 4, I know that but that surge of anger and irritableness is not containable and I have to contain it. For her sake you know.
The mental health nurse is still off until Monday do that leaves me in this stupid state of mind which I have been in for the last 3 days. Last time this lasted for 2 bloody months.. I swear I want to hand my daugter to social services just so she doesn't have to put up with me like this.
