Contains abuse - reality's dream

[fivemonthswreaked]

i dont know what to do. my nightmares have been getting worse. ive been haveing nightmares on and off for about six years. ever since my mom's old boyfriend desided mom wasnt enough to satisfy him. ive started dateing this really nice guy, but i have moments of complete panic around him sometimes. i cant be alone with any male without crying and shakeing.age doesnt mater unless its a baby. im freaking out more and more. large sounds, someones shadow, im starting to get scared of being in the hall with so many people, even girls are starting to scare me. i had a dream last night that i was hugging my boyfriend, and he melted into my moms old boyfriend. he abused me and i woke up terrified and shakeing..

[xxhappydaysxx]

Hey,

I am sorry you went through so much. Are you able to talk to your boyfriend about the abuse? He may be able to support you and understand a bit more what you are going through.

Have you ever had any therapy to be able to talk about what you went through?

x

[fivemonthswreaked]

thanks,
i have talked to him about what happened...be doesnt deal well with the fact that i have flashbacks. he gets pissed or depressed when i mention it. no therapy. mom doesn't believe me.

[PassedExpectations]

that sounds like a really difficult situation to be in, especially since your mom doesn't beleive you about what happened...

do you feel like you're anxious in those situations? because with anxiety often the best thing to do is slowly expose yourself to the feared situation a little at a time and let the anxiety fade away on its own so many times that your comfort zone grows (like watching little sections of a scary movie over and over until you can watch the whole thing and just be bored)