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findingmyself · 03-12-2012, 07:04 AM

Just wondering if any one can relate I dont need advice on how to find friends.

We all have dreams and visions of what we want for are life when were little and its weird when where older it doesnt turn out like we wanted it to. I always wanted kids a lot like 4 and a husband that truley loves me that would stay with me through any thing.

You only have one life which kinda sucks haveing 2 lives would be nice. Im 20 now and I dont date because Im scared of geting hurt and Im scared they will leave me. Honeslty I dont trust men I know there not all the same but it seems most guys are un caring not emotional which I dont like. Im very emotional and I dont need a guy that says just get over it like most guys say. Guys just seem not very compassionate. So yeah I dont date because Im scared of geting to close and geting hurt or them leaving me.

I say I wish we had two lives because honestly I could see my self living alone never geting married for the rest of my life I am content alone I like being alone that way no one can hurt me. I am the most happiest and content when Im alone and with my pets. But the thing is if I go a long with being alone never geting married no kids and reach 40 I will always wonder what if I did get married have kids or really wish I did but by then its too late. I am afraid later on in life I will regret being alone when its too late to start a family. If I had two lives I could try being alone forever and in the other one have a family but its not that way which sucks I have only one life so I dont know what to do. Im trying to think when Im 40 and its too late will I regret not getting married will I wish i would have. Thats a big regret and I cant go back in time. I guess you could say im a very laid back person at times most of the time. I am content staying home alone with my pets sleeping in watching tv and eating.

Also I dont know if this seems weird or not but Im not going to do it seriously Im not. I just could see my self seriously staying home alone forever playing with toys living with my parents forever playing with toys again. I really want to play with my polly pockets again.

Kimaru · 03-12-2012, 08:53 AM

I can relate. I'm too afraid of people to date and even if I wanted to I wouldn't know where to start. I don't really see being alone as a choice for me though, its kind of just how things are. I kind of accepted that it's just not going to happen for me. That being said, I would be fairly content living with my pets, going on the computer, and eating as you would be. I just know that every once in a while a crippling loneliness would wash over me and I'd wonder what it would have been like if I started a family instead. Really though, it's never to late to change things. You could start dating at 40, 50, 60...whatever and you may find that you find someone you love and maybe they already have children. You never know, right?

Yeah, and it's not weird that you could stay with your parents playing with toys forever. I don't want to grow up either.

findingmyself · 03-12-2012, 11:40 PM

My parents get on my nerves to much so there is no way Im living with them forever. I would like to work and live alone in a small aprtment. Maybe not alone not sure yet. Well I dont really want to marry a guy that already was married before I dont want to be in that mess. I can marry at 40 yes but not have kids that would be kinda late to start having them. Of course I get lonely too but it doesnt really bother me.

Good to know there is some one out there that can relate. People see it as bad but if your happy and content being alone with pets then that is all that matter s is your happy.

I guess Ill just figure it out and see what happens in a few years if I marry or not.